Chapter 1

The Secret Of Hearts

“ A soulmate is someone who has locks that fit our keys, and keys to fit our locks,. When we feel safe enough to open the locks, our truest  selves step out and we can be completely and honestly wo we are, we can be loved for who we are and not for who we’re pretending to be “

Chapter 1

True Love Doesn’t Mean Being Inseparable, It Means Being Separated And Nothing Changes

Juhi watch jodha who is laying on the couch with motherly concern, she is been her psychiatrist for almost 2,5 years now and she done lot of effort to finally make her feel normal again but she still trap in the darkness, the painfull experiences she suffered 3 years ago still leave a nasty scar in her heart and soul, sometimes she wonder why God give this sweet beautiful girl  such hard life, but may be this is life and we never knew what the story written up for our life, she back to reality and hearing jodha says something.

“ im sorry jodha what you say ? “

Jodha look at Juhi with smile in her face, her best frend mother were like her own mother, since her mother death and mess in her life she was taken her under her wings, she help her to back on her own feet again “ I say tonight my bos asking my help supervise an event since some some supervisor cant come to work due to flu, it’s a engagement party if im not mistaken “ said jodha

“ oh really jodha .. that’s a good news my child, im happy for you because it will the first time for you to have an opportunity to socialize again, I know you’re attending not as a guest but at least you can feel and watch how people get to know each other “ Juhi catch a glimpse of fear in her eyes.

“ but aunty .. how if I cant …… “

“ stop jodha … “ cut Juhi “ its been a long time and you show a lot of improvement so don’t feel fear my child, its time now you move forward, leave the past, what’s the past stay in the past, don’t let it hold your back to reach happiness, you’re young still have very long way ,  have lot things you haven’t see and reach so don’t give up, don’t let the past become a obstacle that you couldn’t pass .. and beside .. moti will be with you so im sure you’re gonna fine “ jodha nod understand to every her words, may be it is the time she put everything behind and start her new life.

“ yes aunty ,, I just hope I wont feel awkward looking soo much people around me, but like you said moti will be with me so im confident I will be ok “ she said with excited.

Juhi smile with satisfaction listening to her positivity “ good jodha . . I like your positivity, and don’t forget to tell me bout it , I want to know all the detail “

Jodha laugh with happily “ of course aunty . .i wil tell you everything “

There is pain in Juhi heart listening jodha laugh, its very rare to hear jodha laugh “ oke jodha .. you and moti have fun ok “ and jodha nod as agreement.

MughaLs Coorporation Head Office

Jalaluddin Muhammad Akbar read the report on his hands with serious, he found something odd in one branch sales report and give it note to let adgah investigate this matter, then he close the report and when he intend to take another report the phone on his desk ringing, he pick it up in the first ring.

“ yes …. “

“ Mr. Jalal … Ms. Ruqaiya want to see you “ his secretary announce.

Jalal take a deep breath cos he know what for  ruqaiya come to his office “ let her in “ he said then close the phone, not for long the door open and a beautiful woman come into his office, ruqaiya indeed a very beautiful woman and only with one glance men will fall on her feet but not him, he is immune to her beauty , her beauty is nothing compare to one woman he knew once and without his permission her face come to his mind, her innocent smile, her doe eyes, her curly long back hairs and her soft voice , with her face come to his mind he feel pain in his heart just like someone stab it with a knife.

“ Jalal … “ hearing ruqaiya calling him jalal back to reality, ruqaiya standing in front of his desk.

Very quick jalal composed himself  “ yes ruqaiya … what can I do for you ? “

Ruqaiya see jalal lost in his mind for a few second and she wonder what he think about “ I just want to remind you bout tonight “

Jalal smirk “ aahh tonight .. of course I remember it ruqiaya, how can I forget it if you remind me everyday . . . “ said jalal cynical.

“ Im afraid you forget it since you seem not interesting in our engagement “

Jalal look at ruqaiya with his cold hawk eyes “ this engagement is arranged by my ammijan and your abbujan,from the very beginning I’ve been honest with u that I agreed to this matter only for ammijan and I’ve told you once don’t fancy yourself that i will acted like a doting your fiancée to be, I’ve busy enough with work no need wasting my time into something not important “ said jalal coldly.

Ruqaiya know that jalal love for his mom that make him agree to this engagement but she never think that he will act like this, she know people call him Iceman for a reason, she never heard news bout him linked with a woman, he is famous for being as one of the most richest people in the world, he own lots of business, from hotel chain to gold mining, he inherit mughal coorporation from his father but he is the one who make the company became huge like now, no one dare to challenge him in business world, this company is like his own kingdom and he is the absolute power, if people cant follow his ethic and rhythme work he will show the way out but he is appreacite hie employee who give contribution to his company and he pay them big.

“ I know jalal your time almost for work .. but at least please show some interesting in this engagement matters, what will people say …. “

“ I never care what peolpe say bout me … “ he cut her.

Ruqaiya take a deep breath to keep her patient “ I know that too jalal … just don’t forget to attend ok “ she said almost plead, she never plead in her life but this is bout her honor and her good name, if jalal not come she wont be able to show her face to media, and despite his cold manner she is very curious with him, no woman can tame this handsome iceman and she always up for a challenge, in modellling world she is famous for her beauty and she can get any man she want but not this man, he even didn’t look at her twice when they met for the first time infact he looked so boring when they spen time together, and she is not used with man not interesting in her.

“ Don’t worry ruqaiya I will come ..  “ he reassure her.

Ruqaiya feel relief listening to his words “ okey than .. I will waiting for you tonight “ she said with excitement.

Jalal nod “ so if you finish there are lot of report I must to read so . . . “

Ruqaiya not a fool to not understand that is the signal she must leave but at least he already said he will come and one thing everyone know bout this iceman that he is man of his words “ ok ok .. I will leave now , my make up artist will come in an hour to arrange my make up .. so I will leave you now , see you tonigh jalal “ said ruqaiya then she fly out from jalal office.

Jalal see her leaving his office with unreadable expression then he got up and walking towards the windows, he look up the sky and remembering the woman he love once, the first and the last woman he ever love, she completely broken his heart and shattered it into pieces and his broken heart unheal even after soo many years, he lost faith into something called love, its like poison now for him.

“ wherever you are I hope you miserable like me Jodha “ he whisper with soo much hatred.

Ritz  Hotel Grand Ballroom

There are lot reporters from all over media waiting outside hotel, they hope to take a glimpse of the billionaire jalaluddin Muhammad akbar ans his soon to be fiancée ruqaiya sultan the famous and high paid model in india, since their engagement plan leak to media it became hot news, everyone seems not believe that finally someone can tamed Mr. Iceman and to know who is the sucees lady it’s not surpised, she is indeed very beautiful woman and come from one rich family too, she is the only daughter of real estate businessman hindal  mirza, they are like match made in heaven and now people soo eager to see both of them, security guards try to control reporters who seem very willing to fight with them just to get the best shoot from the beautiful couple.

Then two black limo come to the venue and in second there are blitz everywhere, camera man try their best to find a perfect spot to take pic while reporters busy giving live reports, first limo stop and the 3 body guards come out from limo and open the door, the first one who come out is Mr. Hindal Mirza and his beautiful wife Neha they waved to the reporters and giving their best smile, the nest one who come out is Bakshi she is jalal younger sister, she look very beautiful with her read staples gown, she is too waved to reporters with very sweet smile on her face, then body guard close the door and limo move forward and the last limo take the spot, body guards open limo’s door and come out mirza hakim, he is jalal brother, the flamboyant playboy give sexy smile to reporters and with naughty wink to female reporters making them blushing, Mrs. Hamida Bano come out from limo and mirza help her mother and then put his mother hand around his arm, tonight he will be his mother handsome escort, like others hamida waved her hand to reporters and more camera blitz clik here and there, and the moment everyone wait is come, the Jalaluddin Muhammad Akbar come out from limo, he look riddiculus handsome with his black tuxedo, female reporters mesmerizinf by his figure and all the can do is drooling over him, like a gentleman he is helping ruqaiya come out, the moment both couple stand side by side situation become wild, everyone push each other aside to take the front row to got best picture, there are reporters voice here an there who ask lot of questions but none got answer, ruqaiya who look drop dead gorgeous in blue gown waved too to the crowd with a smile, while jalal not bother to waved instead he ask others to come inside, with body guards lead and guard the couple and families they all come inside venue, jalaluddin may be not the tallest guy compare to his body guards and brother but his manly and authority aura overshadow them all.

Jodha and moti looking at beautiful grand ballroom decoration with an awe, its very beautiful decoration, its dominating by white colour and there a lot of white roses, lot of guests already present and they eagerly waiting jalal and ruqaiya, jodha try to remember how many guests that invite to this engagement party, its very big grand ballroom and she estimate it can accommodate more than 3000 peole, she is thinking it just a engagement party and its already big celebration, she cant imagine when the wedding taking place how many people will be inviting.

“ Jodha …. “ moti call her best friend with low voice.

“ Yes moti .. what’s wrong ? “ she ask her

“ nothing is wrong just want to sat there a lot handsome men here . . may be we can get each one handsome men when this is all over “ said moti with excited and she wink at jodha who felt awkward hearing that.

“ no no .. not for me . . you can get one if you want to “ jodha said with nervousness suddenly attact her.

Moti almost curse herself because she forget her condition “ geez sorry babe I forget .. “

“ It’s oke moti no need to apologise because im fine …. “ jodha look unsure im moti eyes “ honesty moti im really fine .. feel little bit nervous but Im oke “ she reassure her best friend.

“ Okey then if you are sure “ jodha make a sign with his fingers as a sign that she is ok then both laughing “ by the way jodha do you know who is gonna get engage tonight ? “ ask moti

Jodha shake her head as she had no idea who is this engagement party “ I don’t know moti, do you know ? “

“ this is the engagement party of ruqaiya sultan and the billionaire jalauluddin muhammad, that’s why you can see lot of handsome men and beautiful women here and I guess they are models too like ruqaiya and I see stephanie khan attend too, she is ruqaiya no 1 rival and im surprise to see her but I guess no one want to miss this big event, and there are lot peole I don’t recognize and perhaps those are jalal business partner , we are in the same room with lot rich people and famous models too .. it’s the best event I ever attend …. “ said moti with happy.

Jodha smile looking her hyper friend “ And who is this ruqaiya sultan and jalaluddin Muhammad ? “ ask jodha curious.

Moti not feel weird jodha didn’t recognize those names, her best friend always not interesting in entertainment world gossip and men are out of her priority since 3 years ago “ ruqaiya is famous top model while jalaluddin Muhammad is one the richest man in the world “ said moti

Jodha listening with full interest “ ohh really .. wow . . famous model and one of the rich man in the world .. that’s very nice combination … “

Moti become excited to talk bout the hot jalal “ yes jodha .. ruqaiya is very famous but her soon to be fiancée are in whole another level, he is handsome, rich, smart and of course hot .. people said finally there is a woman who can tame the iceman “

Jodha just nodding with everything moti said and sometimes she smile and she don’t realize her smile make her face light up and she look more beautiful, some men who notice her presence start to pay more attention because jodha is very beautiful but women who notice her too feel jealous, jodha just wear a simple black skirt and a grey blazer but her beauty still stand out, and they start to think who is this beautiful girl.

Jodha look at her watch and ask moti what time the engagement will start “ bout 7.30 pm . . I think they already come “ said moti while she is turn her head to entry door and see some men standing there as a guard, then suddenly she notice some men looking at where she and jodha standing and she realize they are looking at jodha, there is adoration in their eyes and she must confess her best friend indeed very beautiful girl eventhough sometimes she didn’t realize that.

Jodha’s phone ringing and she see the caller id its her bos calling her so she answer it “ yes mam . . . no they haven’t come yet mam “ said jodha then she listening to her bos on the phone while moti watching jodha “ oke mam I will deal with that now .. don’t worry “ she said then end the call.

“ What’s wrong ? “ ask moti’

“ There is a small problem in the kitchen .. I must see it, can you cover here ….. “

“ Go … I can handle it here “ said moti then jodha go to see what’s the problem, moti watching jodha disappear into kitchen when she hear the announcement that ruqaiya and jalal and their families come, everyone turn their head to the entry door and hold their breath when they see the gorgeous couple step they foot into the venue, even moti hold breath to look at them, the couple and family lead to their sits by the famous host manish bharwaj, with the money they have its no wonder they got the best for this party, and after they sit manish introducing both jalal and ruqaiya background and the beautiful engagement plan for the beautiful couple.

Moti never see two people soo handsome and beautiful and seem very match like they were born to be together.

“ so ladies and gentleman before the official engagement we will listen to each parents speech and wise words for the happy couple “ said manish, everyone giving claps when hindal mirza start to giving his speech, but jalal cant hear what his father in law says since he is very shock to catch someone he really know, jodha who just come back from kitchen with some waitres now see giving some order to the waitress and she is busy with her duty until she don’t realize two anger eyes watching her.

Jalal try to control himself when he see her for the first time, he curse his fate why bring her back in this moment and he hold his hands into very tight fist under the table, he keep watching her cant take his eyes from her, it’s been 4 years but she still looks very beautiful even more beautiful since the last day she saw her “ what .. what are you thinking ? why are you think like that, you hate her, you don’t find her beautiful anymore “ suddenly his consciousness hit him, then she see jodha touch her head as she have headache and one woman talk to her they seem argue little bit but then jodha go outside, without knowing what he is doin jalal stand up and whisper on manish’s ear and he nod understand to jalal words, jalal see ruqaiya and the entire family watching him with question in their face “ I’ll be right back “ he said then leave, but jalal don’t realize a pair of eyes observe him like a hawk, mahan anga notice something weird happen to jalal, she observe jalal freeze for a second and the look on his face that time like he was just seeing a ghost, with curiosity she followed jalal outside but when she can’t find jalal anywhere she decided to come back inside.

Meanwhile Jalal following jodha walking toward a garden and she sit on a chair under a big tree, he cant believe hiw own eyes when the first time he see her, its really her in flesh and blood, he don’t know if it’s a destiny or fate or what but one thing for sure his wound open again , he still remembered the feeling when he saw her in wedding dress ready to married with other guy, he couldn’t believe she was betrayed him, he love her with all his heart, ready to give up everything for her but she threw his love into the mud by married someone else without even saying words to him, no explanation, no excuse, she just cut him from her life and when she and her husband circle the holy fire their eyes met and he saw pain, anger and cold in her eyes then she broke the connection and do her marriage ritual till finish and with that his heart shattered by pieces and become cold,from that day he swear never to falling in love again, all these years he thought he already put her out his system, he always sure if one day he meet her he wont feel nothing but damn he still feel the pain, and now he promise himself that she must pay for what she did to him, how much he suffering for the last 4 years she must suffer twice.

Jodha looking at the moon and stars, its looks very beautiful despite surrounding by darkness just like her heart full or darkness and emptiness, people said time will heal the pain but that was just a lied, time cant heal her broken heart, cant heal the emptiness and darkness inside her heart, it almost 4 years but the pain is still there,her phsycally wound just a scar now but eventually it will disappear one day just like the doctor said but the scar in her heart never heal, unconsciously she touch her heart and close her eyes, and one face come in front of her eyes, the face she missed a lot, she hate and love him, she want to hate him since he take a part for the mess in her life and no where to found when she need him the most, but her love for him more stronger than her hatred, and her love for him the only thing make her survived during the worst days in her life, tears fall down to her cheeks when she remember how he used to loved her “ akbar “ she say in whisper, she don’t realize someone standing in front of her.

“ wah wah wah . . . I never knew one cold betrayer can cry “ jodha froze listening to those voice, she remember that voice, she always dreamt that one day she could hear that voice again,  jodha still close her eyes noT dare to open it to check if its all real.

“ What’s wrong jodha ? afraid to see if it’s really me ? “ ask jalal cynical, hearing his voice tone jodha open her eyes then look up and looking straight into very cold eyes, its eyes very cold that send chilling into her spine “ still remember me jodha ? “

“ Akbar “ answer jodha in very low voice that jalal almost don’t hear it.

Jalal smirk looking at her shock face “ aah you still remember then, the man you betrayed, the man you broke his heart, the man you said you love with all your life but with cold heart you cut him from your life and married with someone else “ jodha can hear and feel the anger, the hate from him, its feels like he spit his venom to her, she really cant said anything its like she is becoming numb and this make jalal more angry “ why keep silent .. cat eating your tongue ?”

“ I . . .  “

“ what the hell are you doin here ? “ he ask unpatiently.

Jodha really cant make her body react but with all her power she try to make her mouth  speak “ I .. I . . work . . . . “

“ work ? here ? why “ he cut her “ your husband don’t give you any money so you must work ? “ her face suddenly pale listening jalal words and she feel nausea, thank God she is sitting so he wont notice she feels like to faint.

“ I believe that’s  none of your business “ she said in weak tone, she feel suffocating so she must leave fast “ im sorry I must go back to work “ jodha standing and start to leave untill she feel a hand catch her arm and pull her hard and she clash with hard chest, his other hand hold his head by grabbing her hair soo hard until she feel pain, he force her to face him and he watch her with full hatred.

“ yes jodha your life is not my business anymore since you left me 4 years a go, you with your cold heart broken my heart, my trust and my love for you, and after what you’ve done to me not even a single word sorry from you .. is it fun to you to destroy other people heart ? . . . “ his grip on her hair getting tight, she almost scream in pain but she try to hold back.

“ please let me go . . . “ she really cant take it anymore and she need to leave soon.

Jalal move his face closer to her face “ of course I will let you go, you think I still want to after what you have done ?, I despised you . . there is no place for you in my life anymore, I don’t know why we must meet again its like a pathetic joke for me,  but I want you to know that tonight is my engagement party to the beautiful woman and im going to marry her . . . “ her eyes wide open in shock to hear he is the one who getting engage tonight but isn’t it the billionaire jalaluddin muhammad who will getting engage ? but that’s not his name as far as she know and before she can speak his grip on his hairs getting tight while his face move closer and now they are separate a few inch “ but before I let you go I will give you something that you would never forget

“ whaat …. ?? “ she ask in low voice.

“ this …. “ before she can think he kiss her lips with passion and harsh, he want o punch and hur her but the moment he touch her lips he loose control, her soft rosy juicy lips are still sweet like how it used to feel, jodha try to fight but he imprison her body, she keep her moth close when he try to open it, but then jalal pull her hair soo tight till she cried out in pain but she cant hear her voice because the moment her mouth open jalal tounge invading her mouth and exploring it, jalal keep kissing her until both of them need air to breath, then suddenly he broke the kiss and literally pushing her aside soo hard till jodha fall on the ground, jalal looking her with disgust and anger in his eyes , he notice her redden and bruise lips and he curse himself for loosing control, then without saying  words he leave her.

Jodha who still on the ground still in shock and seem her body become numb, then she touch her bruise lips and a sob come from her, after a few minutes she try to composed herself because she still have work to do, if possible she want to go home but she cant leave moti there, so she wipe out her tears, standing up and take a deep breath then walking back to the ballroom, she know what she will face inside but her heart already broken into pieces long time a go so it cant broken again right ?, no matter what she already accepted that she and akbar wont be together long time back and eventhough her heart bleed she will wish his happiness, they are indeed miss matched she was just an ordinary girl while he turns out to be very rich guy, no wonder when they were in relationship he didn’t want anyone know bout it, it would be create scandal a guy like him involve with a girl like her.

Jalal back inside after few minutes missing in action and he see maham anga giving a sign to go to her first “ yes badi ammi . . “ said jalal when she arrive at her side.

“ where have you been ? I follow you out but I cant find you , are you ok ? everyone looking at you “ she ask and she cant help to ignore there is a bruises on his lips.

Jalal give her reassuring smile to her “ im fine baddi ammi . . just need to breath some fresh air, its little bit suffocating here “ he said while his eyes set on a door which lead to garden and maham anga notice where jalal’s eyes set and she look at that direction too but she see no one.

Maham anga touch jalal shoulder with gently “ I know jalal that you are not too keen bout this engagement and you’re doin this for your ammijan, and I know too that you seem not interesting in ruqaiya . . . “

“ I might not interesting in ruqaiya but she is the perfect weapon now for my payback . . . “ he cut her in between with low voice almost like he speak to himself.

Maham anga really don’t understand with jalal suddenly weird behavior “ I beg you pardon jalal . . what do you mean that ? “

Jalal who realize that he might make his badi ammi feeling suspicious change the subject “ its nothing badi ammi . .  let’s continue . . please tell manish to start the engagement ceremony “

Maham anga just nod and go to manish and speak to him to start the event.

Moti feel something wrong when she see jodha, she see bruises on her lips and emptiness in her eyes, she really worry now “ are you ok ? “ she ask jodha when she stand beside her.

Jodha just nod and staring at the man she love the most who standing beside the most beautiful woman she ever seen, they now in process exchanging engagement rings, jalal watching jodha seeing at him and ruqaiya and he feel satisfaction see the tears in her eyes “ now you know how I felt when I saw you married him “ he said to himself, he put engagement ring on ruqaiya finger then suddenly he got idea to hurt jodha more, without saying words he kiss ruqaiya lips making everyone numb in shock but his eyes search for jodha eyes and what he see make him shiver, there is no anger, no pain in her eyes just emptiness its like no life there, the tears coming down to her cheeks but she didn’t bother to wipe it out, don’t know why but jalal feels there is something wrong with her.

Moti see the tears on jodha cheeks and then she give jodha tissue to wipe out the tears “ babe here . . wipe out your tears, I know this engagement is very beautiful right and jalal seems very much in love with his fiancée “ said moti not realize her words put acid into her wounded heart.

Jodha try to smile “ yes moti this engagement is very beautiful .. the couple looks pretty much in love and happy “ she said while still looking at jalal who now receive congratulations from guests.

Moti put her hand on jodha’s shoulder and squeeze it gently “ one day there will come a prince charming for you who will take all sorrow, darkness and emptiness in your life and will fill it with love and happiness “ jodha look at moti and give her a empty smile, she appreciate moti optimistm but she know that day would never come because her prince charming turns out to be a fake, the man she loved was akbar not jalaluddin Muhammad, her heart broken into pieces in one night but tonight her soul die inside, she will always love akbar and cherish every happy moment with him, she will live with the love and shadow of him and that’s enough for her, the man who stand not far from her now not worth to being love by someone like her, he is like a king and a king only deserve being love by his royal queen not by a commoner like her, she will always keep the commoner akbar in her heart.

Jodha back to reality and with the easiness in her heart she ask moti to help the waiters serve the guests.

Jalal and ruqaiya still receiving the guests who want to give them bless , but even than jalal eyes unknownly to everyone always search for jodha, and once he caught her talking to his ammijaan, ruqaiya noticing jalal watching for someone and she follow his gaze then see her soon to be mother in law talking with a beautiful woman and ruqaiya feel something weird looking jalal watching his ammijaan with such intensity in his eyes.

“ jalal . . . “ ruqaiya call him

“ yes ruqaiya . . . “ he answer her without breaking his gaze.

“ why are you watching ammijaan with such intensity ? is she alright ? “ she ask

Jalal break the gaze and pay attention to his new fiancée “ yes she is alright . . I just make sure there is nothing wrong with her, you know ammijaan just got out from hospital last weeks “ then jalal watching his ammijaan again who still talking with jodha.

Suddenly ruqaiya grab jalal hands “ then let’s make sure ammijaan is ok “ she grab jalal hand and bring him with her to ammijan, jalal little bit surprise by her action but he composed himself, when they reach ammijaan jalal really cant take off his eyes from jodha who look very calm.

Hamida smile with happily seeing her loving eldest son with his new fiancée “ areee . . why both of you here, aren’t you supposed to serve the guests ? “ ask hamida

“ your son worry bout you so we decide to check if you are ok “ said ruqaiya.

Jodha feel shock but she try to conteol herself ,don’t know that the very kind old lady who talking nice to her is the mother of the man she loved once, she look at hamida then jalal and her eyes captured by his hawk eyes.

“ I’m ok child . . may be little bit tired but these beautiful kind young lady making sure I’m ok “ announce hamida not knowing her words make such dramatic effect to jalal and jodha,

Ruqaiya look at jodha and suddenly she felt threat by her, she don’t know this girl but she feel dislike towards her “ ohh thank you .. who are you ? “

“ It’s not a problem .. I’m jodha, one of employee from event organizer that arranged your engagement party mam . . .  “

“ aaahh just en employee “ ruqaiya cut her, then she look jodha from head to toe with  underestimate gaze.

Jodha feel uncomfortable being watch like that and so she decide to go from there “ please excuse me I still have works to do . . its been pleasure to talking you mam “ said jodha to hamida then she face jalal and ruqaiya “ congratulation for your engagement sir .. mam . . “ there is pain in her heart when she said those words but she press the pain and wish the happiness for jalal and his fiancée, jalal see a glimps of pain in jodha eyes and to be honest he have mixed feeling now, then jodha excuse herself and go from there, he keep looking at her until she lost in the crowd.

“ such a very lovely girl  . . . “ praise hamida “ too bad she have a very sad eyes “ she continue, jalal look at hamida with curious.

“ what do you mean ammijaan ? “ ask jalal, ruqaiya notice interesting in jalal voice.

“ her eyes very sad and sometimes show emptiness .. I wonder if she going through bad or sad experiences “ said hamida while she remembering that girl doe eyes who look so sad that she even can see the pain in her eyes.

“ how do you know ammijaan . . . ? “ now its ruqaiya asking.

Hamida looking at jalal and ruqaiya “ because only a person who suffer and face a lot of pain who can have those kind sad eyes . . . and once I’ve seen those kind sad eyes in the eyes one of my kids “ said hamida and she is looking straight to jalal but jalal pretend to not hear and look the other way.

Ruqaiya want to know more but jalal cut her and close the topic, he give sign to maham anga that its almost time to end the party and he want to get out from there as soon as possible, jalal still looking around hoping to find the glimpse of jodha but she is no where to find “ forget her .. you hate her to the core but why you still searching for her, still looking for her “ his consciousness reminds him again and in his effort to forget jodha, he take ruqaiya into his arms and they are for the last time meet the guests before leaving the party.