Chapter 3

Chapter 3

          What do you do when the one who broke your heart is the one who can fix it

Nervously jodha play her watch, she keep her head down as she try to gain all her courageous to face the woman in front of her, she already come 15 minutes a go and still lost her voice.

Juhi observe jodha who clearly feel nervous, she knew something wrong happened to jodha when moti told her that jodha fainted at work, and she saw the evident of jodha tiredness from lack of sleep time, she had a guess what happened to her but she need jodha to tell by herself.

“ Jodha “ she call her gently and will slowly jodha raise her head and finally look at her “ do you want to tell me what’s buggin you ? “

Jodha take a deep breath “ aunty . . those nightmares are coming back, everytime i closed my eyes he is coming “ juhi heart break looking at her desperation eyes “ he just cant stop torturing me .. what should i do aunty “ she add with sad, jodha start to hug herself as if it can shield her from the world.

Juhi standing and move toward jodha, she sit beside her then she carres her head with love “ jodha sweety . . look at me “ said juhi and with teary eyes jodha turn her head aside “ sweety . . he cant hurt you anymore, the judge already punished him 15 years jail sentences, he cant reach you and remember that the last time he beaten you, you fight jodha, you give him hell so the neighbour heard what really happening and called the police .. do you remember that ? “ jodha nod as she remember that day crystal clear “ so now just like how you fight him hard that day i want you fight him in your dream, remember he cant hurt you .. its your dream so you have power to beat him, he enjoying your fear so don’t give it to him, i know it will really hard but show him no fear, you have done that once so in reality so do it again, you are very stong woman jodha, with all that bad experiences you must endured you survived, you are back even when you must crawling from the deep dark hole but here you are … im very proud of you my child “ said juhi with proudly, jodha feel something heavy being taken away from her heart then she throw herself into juhi arms and cried, she cried for all those restless night because of those nightmares, she cried for her heart which broken once again and she cried for the man she could never able to reach.

Juhi give her motherly hug , she let her cry , let her release her fear, her sadness then after she tired from crying she only can hear her sob.

“ aunty . . . “ call jodha in the middle of her sob.

“ yes sweety . . . “

“ do you remember once i told you bout one guy that i had serious relationship before i married to surya ? “ she ask

Juhi try to collect her memory and she remembered when jodha told her bout that guy “ hmmmm . . if im not mistaken his name is akbar .. am i right ? “

Jodha move away and lean on her back to the couch, she wipe out her tears with her palm “ his real name is not akbar “

“ what you mean jodha ? “ ask juhi confusing.

Still in sob “ aunty . . do you know a billionaire name jalaluddin Muhammad ? “

Juhi remember moti mentioned that name once “ I’ve heard moti mentioned that name . . he is one of richest people in the world “ said juni “ what its all have to do with your akbar ? “ juhi more and more confusing now.

“ akbar and jalaluddin Muhammad are the same person “ said jodha, juhi shink her forehead when she try to put everything in one then she give jodha shock face when finally she realize jodha words.

“ ooh God . . your akbar is jalaluddin Muhammad ? , that jalaluddin Muhammad ? “ she tried to making sure she don’t get wrong.

Jodha look at juhi with sadly smile “ yes aunty . . that jalaluddin Muhammad, and i met him that night, when i help to supervised an event you remember ? the engagement party “

Juhi nod “ yes i remembered that event “ then some the truth strike her “ isn’t that night he was being engaged to the famous model ruqaiya sultan ? “ she ask with shock.

Jodha “ yes he is the one and only “

Juhi really don’t know what to do “ ooh my poor child . . . but you said you met him, did you talk to him ? “

“ oh yes aunty we talked .. at least he talked “ said jodha ” he talked how he hate me, despised me, how i betrayed him, throw away his love for me , its like he burst his anger and his hatred towards me “ she add with bitter.

Juhi close her mouth she cant believe that fate will play such a cruel joke , she cant imagine how jodha felt that time “ im sorry jodha .. why you didn’t tell me bout this earlier ? “

“ i need time to accepted all of this . . that night i found out that the man i love is not the man i used to know, the one i love is ordinary akbar not the billionaire one, no wonder when we were in relationship he didn’t want tell to anyone, it would be ashamed for him if media or even his family found out bout our relationship “ tears start to falling again on jodha cheeks and she wipe out it harshly “ when i watched him that night . . i realize his world very different with mine , she seem soo high up above soo far away out of my reach “

Juhi take jodha hands and hold it with gentle “ do you still love him jodha ? don’t see him as akbar or jalaluddin Muhammad, just see him as a man, you still love him don’t you ? “

“ yes … “ answer jodha whispering “ it’s pathetic right aunty ? i still love the man who broke my heart, no matter how much how much paint he gave to me, still cant get him out of my mind “

Juhi smile hearing jodha’s words “ child its not pathetic, sometimes we can’t see logic in love, it drive us doin something beyond our minds and sometimes we act fool because of love, love is very powerfull once you start to love someone it almost impossible to stop it . . but right now i don’t want you too think too much bout this, i believe God have a beautiful plans for you, you are still young, beautiful, smart and believe it that there is someone outhere waiting for you . . . “ jodha in deep thinking hearing juhi words “ but next time jodha when you find your prince charming he will have to face me fisrt “ jodha smile to her cute warning.

“ aunty i don’t want prince charming .. i want someone who will make me his princess “ said jodha, juhi see a glimpse of hope in her eyes and she is glad that it’s a good sign.

Juhi pinch jodha chin slowly “ that man will be the most lucky man in the world to have such a wonderfull girl like you “ jodha smile with happy as she already forget a moment before she still live in terror but juhi very happy with it, all jodha need is attention, caring and love, and when jodha get that she will completely overcome her dark past.

Ruqaiya and amrita finally meet up and ruqaiya telling her bff incident in jalal office, and amrita feel really concern bout her friends.

“ Ruqaiya . . if you and jalal didn’t have feeling for each other what the needs to continue this relationship, he seem very cold and unreachable “ said amrita.

Ruqaiya looking at her best friend as if she is loosing her mind “ you kidding right ? you know how rich he is ? not to mention how powerfull he is “

“ everyone who live in high class know exactly who is jalaluddin Muhammad akbar but is it worth it to live your life loveless just for the sake of money, fortune and social status ?, you dumped shahid just to pursue jalal eventhough you know shahid love you a lot “ said amrita, she know her best friend come from rich family too so she feel that why she still obsesse with jalal fortune and his social status.

“ listen amrita .. it’s once in a lifetime opportunity that i can be mrs. Jalaluddin Muhammad and i will not let anything or anyone getting in the way not even his cold or monster behaviour . . and beside my father wont let him hurt me, no one dare to mess with hindal mirza “ said ruqaiya with arrogantly.

Amrita just shake her head because she will never understand how ruqaiya mind works “ i just hope you wont regret it because jalal is untamed lion, and I bet you wont be able to tame the iceman “ she said and ruqaiya looking at amrita with angry.

“ are you underestimate me ? “ she ask with hight tone.

“ no cher i just state what I feel “ said amrita with calm.

Ruqaiya pouted to amrita, she hate when everyone start to telling her that she wont ever be able to tamed jalal, but she still believe she can do that, eventhough today she is very shock with his behaviour but her father will teach jalal a lesson, eventhough his father not riddiculous rich like jalal but he is quite powerfull too in business world so he wont intimidate by jalal power.

Amrita watching ruqaiya lost in her own mind, she really feel sorry for her because she dumped a man who truly love her just for the sake of jalal, may be ruqaiya hasn’t realize yet that she lost something special now but one day she will realize and she hope its not too let for her that time.

Mughal Mansion

Mirza  just got arrive at home when he see his mother at door, mirza climb out from car and walking towards the house “ salam ammijaan “

“ salam mirza . . where is jalal ? “ she ask, mirza can see concern and worry on her face.

“ bhaijan leave office earlier, he had something to do “ mirza answer “ what’s wrong ammijaan ? is there something wrong ? “

Hamida ask mirza to go with her to garden and they both sit on a chair “ I’ve just got a call from hindal mirza, he is quite piss off bout jalal being angry to ruqaiya today at jalal office and he demand jalal apologize to ruqaiya personally as soon as possible “ mirza curse that bitch because with cleverly she is using his father for making pressure on jalal and damn that hindal mirza for involving his mother into this mess, they are gonna pay big when jalal find out bout this, but suddenly mirza got an idea to help his brother engagement broke off, and he smile happy like a wolf who just got last supper and hamida feel confusing looking at mirza who all happy happy “ mirza “ called hamida.

With still cunning smile on his face he look at her “ yes ammijaan . . . “

“ why you smile like a fool ? “

“ hahahah oh my God ammijaan . . you break my heart how can you said this sexy smile as a fool smile “ mirza pouted cutely.

Hamida laugh “ ok ok . . my mistake . . why you smile with sexy like that ? “ correct her.

Mirza nod with satiesfield “ nothing special ammijaan but im very glad that finally i can find a way to help bhaijan “ said mirza

“ help jalal with what ? “ ask hamida worry.

Mirza take hamida hands and hold them very gently “ listen ammjiaan i cant tell you anything right now since i already give my words to bhaijan but i want you to know that whatever bhaijan and i do, we do it for bhaijan happiness, he is been taking care us for years and always thinking our happiness now its time for him to think his happiness “ said mirza.

Hamida now feel something is wrong “ mirza you really make me worry .. what exactly happened between jalal and ruqaiya ? “

“ ammijaan .. ammijaan . . “ mirza try to calm her “ listen ammijaan . . there is nothing to worry as per now the storm hasn’t come, but ammijaan i want to ask something .. “ hamida nod “ if and i said if bhaijan and ruqaiya engagemen broke off do you have any objection with that ? “ ask mirza with straight.

Hamida really shock mirza ask something like that “ you better come clean mirza and tell me everything “

“ no ammijaan i cant do that .. all i want to know is that will you feel disappointing if bhaijan and ruqaiya marriage being call off ? “ he ask again.

“ I arranged jalal and ruqaiya engagement because i want to see jalal having someone special in his life, he always alone, eventhough have us but he will need someone by his side, who will be with him through good and bad time, all i care is jalal, you and bakhsi happiness “ said hamida , mirza kiss hamida hands with love, he always admire her mother.

“ and we are as a kids always think you happiness ammijaan . . the reason I ask you those question is that there is huge possibility bhaijan will call off the marriage and if that really happen the media will turns every rock to find the reason why bhaijan call it off so i just want you to prepare your self if that is really happen “ explain mirza.

Hamida smile at how jalal and mirza always make sure she and bakshi protected but they are not weak “ mirza i knew jalal accept this marriage arrangement because of me and may be deep down i always know that it just a matter of time until jalal feel enough, all matters to me is jalal happiness “ said hamida with love for her eldest son.

“ I bet if bhaijan is here he will very happy to listen to your words ammijaan “ mirza look at his mother with proud and love.

Hamida pinch mirza cheeks “ so whatever you and your bhaijan plans just let me know when me and bakhsi need to bring guns “ said hamida jokingly.

“ you are wonder woman you know that ammijaan “ praise mirza.

Hamida laugh happily “ of course im a wonder woman . . to have stubborn kids like you all i will need super power “ mirza laughting so hard then he ask ammijaan to come inside because it start to feel cold and he doesn’t want his super mother getting sick, with still joking both of them come into house.

Jalan look at his watch and its 8.30 pm, he already sit there for 2 hours, he is collecting his courage, his heart, his strength to finally face the woman he love, he watched jodha already back to apartment 2 hours a go, she was driven by an middle age woman, they talk little bit then the woman go and jodha go inside her apartment building, he is been waiting for her and finally she come home, and while waiting for her jalal just sit inside the car, he feel bad for bobby ant driver who trap with him inside the car, jalal take a deep breath “ it’s time “ he said to himself.

“ bobby “ he call the head of his body guards and he turn his back to face jalal.

“ yes bos “

“ I must take care something very important here and i don’t know how long it would take, but im not coming back by midnight let the others go home to take a rest and come back here in the morning and bring me new dress because i have important meeting tomorrow “ bobby watch jalal with naughy smile on his face because his bos important matter must be her the very beautiful lady who just got home 2 hours a go, jalal see the naughty smile one bobby face and he feel like to smash his smug face because he know what is bobby thinking.

“ ok bos your wish is our command “ said bobby, jalal then climp out from car and he acros the road to reach jodha apartment bulding, then open door and climb up the stairs, jodha apartment in second floor, with every stairs he clims he feel his heart beating so fast but he try to control himself, and finally he arrive in fron of jodha apartment, its number 9 apartment based on data he received from private investigator, he blowing a breath before he knock the door.

Jodha is just bout to drink milk when she hear knock on her door, she put the milk on dining table and walk towards the door when she hear the knock for the second time “ hold on “ she said.

Jalal feel more tension and nervous when he hear her voice then before he can think again he hear jodha unlock the keys and the door open, both jalal and jodha frozen when their eyes meet for the first time and a few minutes they are just looking at each other but suddenly jodha back to her sense and with angry she close the door but jalal move very qick. He put his feet on the door and hold it with his hand so jodha cant close the door.

“ move your feet .. go away “ she yell while trying soo hard to close the door.

“ we need to talk jodha . . . “

“ I don’t want to talk thank you . . last time we met you’ve talk enough “ said jodha, with frustration she kick jalal feet but suddenly with his strength he push the the door soo it open now make jodha really upset.

“ invite me in jodha “ he ask her nicely.

“ I don’t want to invite you in not in a milllons years . .  .  “

“ invite me in jodha or we can talk like this . . i have no problem if you prefer we talk here but i guess you don’t want to disturb your neighbour “ said jalal with hidden threat to make a scene there if jodha wont invite him in.

With a hard heart she let him in then he come inside , close the door and lock it, jodha already walking towards small living room, jalal looking around her apartment, it dominate by broken white color, there are not too much stuff here, there are a not too big sofa , small chair and table , a small tv table with not too big tv on it, a small dining table with two chair, a small refrigerator, jalal just realize that all stuff in jodha apartment in small size may be because the apartment it self not too big but he like it here, its very homey.

Jodha sit on sofa and watch jalal who without a shame lookin around her apartment like he is inspecting something and she wait in nervous waiting his approval, then jalal look at jodha who is watching him and he raise his eyebrow “ finish inspect my apartment . .  ? “ she said in sarcasm, jalal smile then he sit on sofa beside jodha and she with intentionally move a little bit so they distance between them and jalal notice that.

“ so what do you want to talk about ? “ ask jodha, she refuse to see his face so she keeping her focus up front, jalal look at her who refuse to face him.

“ firstly i want to apologize for my behaviour at the last time we met “ said jalal with regret “ what i said that day to you very cruel and i wish i taken back those words “

“ well too bad you’ve already said those words . . you can’t taken back what you have said and now its in my mind “ jodha bow her head and with sad she remembered how each his painfull words stabed her heart just like a knife.

“ that time i wanted to hurt you . . to make you suffered . . to make you felt what i felt “ said jalal with honestly, he want to be honest with her bout his feeling “ for the last 4 years i hated you , i cursed you and  i though you are just cold hearted bitch who betrayed me “

“ well congratulation your mission is a success . . “ her voice is so low that jalal almost couldn’t her it.

“ Look at me jodha “ he ask nicely but she shake her head “ look at me please . . jojo “ jodha freeze for a moment when she heard him calling her by her petname, in the past he likes to call her by that name and then against her will her body take its own action, she turn her head and look at him, what she see in his eyes make her hold of her breath, there too much emotions in his eyes sad, regret, concern and yearning.

“ why you do this . . why you call me by that name ? “ she ask with sad and upset.

“ I like call to call you by that name . . . “

“ but i don’t  . . “ she snap “ just say what you what you want to say then leave “ she really want him to go before she break down, she don’t want to break in front of him.

“ im afraid you cant get rid off me easily this time “ said jalal with confident and determation “ i wont go before we clear everything what happened 4 years a go . . . “

“ for God sake . .  “ jodha stand and looking at him with angry “ there’s nothing to clear and i want you leave now “

Jalal raise from his seat and now they both standing, its like they ready to fight “ nothing . . nothing to clear ? are you kidding me ? you never told me the reason why you betrayed me and married someone one else, you even didn’t bother to call me . . . “

Now jodha really get mad how come he throw the blame on her for his own mistake “ didn’t bother to call you . . . I’ve called you until i lost count how many times, I’ve send you message but you never reply, i even came to your apartment but you weren’t there, everyday like a fool i was came to your apartment waiting for you, i’ve searched for you but you were gone . . you no where to be found, you are gone just when i needed you the most “ jalal very shock to hear that, but he didn’t get any call or message from her.

“ but jodha . . i didn’t get any call or message from you “ he said still in shock with what jodha just reveal.

“ yeah right . . . how convenient now you say that “ said sarcastic jodha ‘ I’ve been a fool to believe whatever you said, i believe in your love, i believe in your sweet words, i believe in you promises and look what it gets me . . i even belive your name akbar and turns out everything was just a lie . . . “

“ the only lie i told you was my work, i didn’t work at one of big company .. i owned it, but rest are the truth, my father’s name humayun , my mother hamida, my brother mirza and my sister bakshi .. they all real, and akbar is really my name . . “ jodha look at jalal with confusing “ my full name is jalaluddin muhammad akbar but most of people call me jalaluddin Muhammad . . only people from business world mention me with my full name “ jodha totally shock so akbar is his real name too but she refused to believe that he didn’t lie bout others.

“ oke fine . . you didn’t lie bout your name but you lie bout other, you never love me how can you love me im just an ordinary girl while you . . . .  “ in speed of light jalal hold jodha face with his two hands and  look straight into her eyes.

“ listen jodha . . . i truly love you . . then and now . . still love and will always love you “ for a moment jodha and jalal just looking at each other and jodha see the truth in his eyes, he is indeed love her but that’s change nothing, jodha break the connection and release herself from him then she step back a little bit, jalal know she believe in his love but there still one fact he need to know  “ tell me jodha . . why you married someone else “

“ there is no use to talk bout that now . . . “

“ just humor me jodha . . tell me “

Jodha hear determination in his voice, he will not leave this matter, jodha take a deep breath before she tell him the day her bad fate sealed “ on one night i heard my father told my mother that a quite rich family giving marriage proposal, they want me to married their eldest son surya and my father agree to their proposal, i was really shock because i don’t want want to marry him, i love you and want to marry you only, so the next morning with a liitle courage i confront him, i told him that i knew his plan but i wont agree to it because i have a man that i want to marry so i told him bout you, he was very angry and he wont let me marry you so he will arrange the wedding to be held soon, i wish very panic didn’t know what to do, i called you and send you message but you never called back or reply  . . . “ she look at jalal with accusation in her eyes.

“ I swear in the name of Allah i never get any call or message from you . . but i will look into this matter later . . please continue “ jalal mind still in the cloud regarding her claim bout the call ans message but just like he say he will look to that matters.

“ and so couple times i come to your apartment but you never there “

“ that time i have back to mumbai to meet my father and told him that i love one girl and want to married her “ jodha look at jalal with distrust “ its true jodha . . but unfortunetly my father got heart attacked and died on the way to hospital and i trap into chaos “

Jodha close her mouth as shock to hear his father death “ im sorry for your lost “ she sad with sadly.

Jalal nod “ thank you … back to your story, what happened next “

“ My father found out bout me searching for you and he was happy that you are out the picture so his plan will goin smoothly, but for the first time in my life i fight him, i refused to marry surya no matter what and he .. he . . . “ jodha closed her eyes, she still can feel the pain eventhough that happen a long time a go.

Jalal can guess what he did but he want jodha said it all “ he what jodha ? what he did ? “

Jodha open her eyes and jalal can see shame there “ he beat me . . . “

Jalal grip his fist so tight to control his anger “ how bad he beaten you up ? “

“ pretty bad “ she said in low voice “ he only stop when mother come and stop him, and later on night my mother ask me bout you and i told her everything and she was very sad but she want me to be happy so the next morning after father leave for work mother called a taxi and help me to runaway, she gave me some money and made me promise to be happy with you and then so i leave and that was the last time i saw her alive “ tears start to fall and she id not bother to hold it back and jalal heart in pain looking at her tears  “ and that day i wait for you outside your apartment, i wait the whole day . . . “

“ ya Allah . . you wait for me outside with weak body that been beaten up ? “ he ask horrified and she nod, ha walking around to express his frustration, oh dear God . . he wish he was with her that time, she needed him that time but he was not around.

She watching jalal walking aroud on edge but she continue her story “ then i’ve got called from father that mother is in hospital, i want to keep waiting for you but i need to see mother, when i arrived at hospital they already put mother in icu and she is in critical condition, father said that mother fall from stairs and her head hit the floor really hard and slip into come due to internal bleeding, but i saw some bruise on mother face that i doubt from falling but i cant do anything and that day my fate being sealed, he blackmailed me to marry surya or he wont pay mother hospital care “ jalal stop dead and looking at jodha with disbelief, he know her father such an ass but to blackmailed her own daughter by refusing his own wife hospital care wah he was really something “ so i married surya but its ironic that mother passed away the day after my wedding “ she chocked.

Jalal cant hold it anymore, he come to jodha, pull her against him and hug her , at first jodha refuse and try to escape but he hug her soo tight so she wont be able to escape and finally she give in, she cried on his chest, his shirt now wet by her tears but he don’t care, to finally hold and hug her is like getting back his air to breath, he let her to cried while his one hand move to jodha head and caress her hair with gentle, he cant believe for all this years he blamed her for his pain, his suffer but it turns out he is the one the major reason for all her pain, if only he didn’t go to mumbai that time may be everything will be different, he is the reason jodha must bear all the assault and beaten from bastard father and ex husband, tears falling from his eyes remembering images of all her wounds from beaten by his ex husband, he kiss jodha head with and tighten his hug.

“ im sorry sweetheart . . it was all my fault, i blamed,cursed and angry to you for all these years, but it turns out there is no one to be blamed but my self . . . im really sorry sweetheart “ his said with hoarse and he still hear jodha sobbing “ ya Allah . . . my stupidity made you must to bear all the beaten and assault by your ex husband . . . “ suddenly he feel jodha frozen.

She look up to him and he see shame,disgusted and horrible in her eyes “ you know ? “ she ask in whisper.

Jalal nod “ I know bout your abusive ex husband and saw the pictures . . . . “ jalal stop when he see horror in jodha face.

Then suddenly jodha feel disguting to herself , he seen her in her worst condition he must be feel sicks looking at that pictures, jodha need to get away from him now … jodha get herself out from his arms and almost run headed to bedroom but jalal caugh her in the middle, she stuggle to get loose , he try to hold her back but she fight will her power the finally jalal hug her from back, he hold her arms and put it together around her body with cover it by his own arm.

“ let me go “ plead jodha between her sob, still struggle to get loose from him.

Refusing her pleading he hold her from back more tight, then suddenly he feel jodha body slip off and both sink on the floor, jodha cried out , jalal put his arm around her shoulders and pull her to his body, jodha’s free hands touch his arms around her shoulder and grip it hard while she cried her heart out.

Jalal kiss jodha’s head hard “ let it go sweetheart . . let it go . . don’t hold it back . . share your pain with me, let me bear it too so i can take it away “ he said in painful, for almost 20 minutes jodha cried released all her pain and agony and jalal with her all the way, he keep holding jodha and couple times he wiped tears on his cheeks, then her cried start to change to sobbed, jodha feel exhausted its like all her strength go into air and somehow she thank jalal holding her if not may be she already fainted coz she now she feel her eyes soo heavy, then she feel jalal move, he take one her arm and put it around his neck and jodha rest her head on his shoulder, then he put one his arm behind her back and one behind her both knee then he lift her up and take her to bedroom, bedroom door already opened so he can straight come in, he lay exhausted jodha on bed her eyes almost completely close, then he open his coat and leave his shoes on the floor, he climb on the bed and lay beside jodha then he lift jodha body little bit and slide his arm under her head, he kiss her forehead gently then pull her close, jodha rest her head on jalal chest and she feel something warm flow into her heart washing all the pain inside, and she feel strong yet gentle grip around her as if it guard her from bad thing, so for the first time in her life since her miserable life  she feel relax and safe.

Jalal hear jodha mumble in her sleep “ sssttt . . . sweety . . im here . . im here “ he whispered and hold her more tight to make her sure that he is with her, then he listen to jodha breath and know that jodha already in deep sleep, his heart break again when he saw her reaction when he mentioned bout her old wound and bruised, oh my God did she think he will feel disgust with her ? , hell he feel disgust with that surya her ex husband, he pray that God will give him one chance to repay all the wound and bruised that he gave to jodha, he will repay hundred time worst.

“ don’t worry jodha .. start today i wont let anyone lay a hand on you even just to touch your shadow they must face me and i will make sure they taste hell “ he promise with determined to sleeping jodha, and with that jalal close his eyes and fall asleep.

It almost midnight and bobby guess that bos will never come back, so he ask other bodyguard to go home and come back again in the morning and not forget to bring new clothes for the big man, then bobby smile because it’s the first time his bos sleepover at woman’s place, and he know this one is very special to him, he’s been with jalal for almost 3 years and he’s not like other rich guy who like to change woman every weeks, may be he is not living like a monk specially when he first assigned as his bodyguard, but the last 2 years he maintain not get involve with any woman and he must confess he salute for his behavior but with his business consume almost his time he guess its impossible too to have such personal life, then bobby look at the apartment building and wonder who is this beautiful woman, jalal seem very smitten and hook by her and just like the information he just got his bos will have this woman by hook an crook, and he happy that finally there’s one woman who can tame his restless bos, and he will do anything to help his bos including join hands with his playboy brother to make that happen, he just hope jalal wont kill him if he found out its mirza plan and he is helping him.

Meanwhile from a peacefully sleep jodha something evil try to ruin it, that nightmare is coming back and this time jodha standing in an empty room, a door start to open and surya standing there with his evil smile and craziness in his eyes, he hold a belt at his hand and start to whip it in the air, then he start to laugh like a mad man watching jodha’s fear, but jodha remember juhi words that it just a dream and he must to fight back and show no fear, so with all the strength she try to show him that she is not scare.

She held her head up “ im scare of you anymore “

Surya laugh “ ooh is that soo ? my little bird not scare of me anymore .. let see if that true “ then surya grab jodha hands so hard, and jodha feel tremendous power to fight him, she wont let him torture her again even in a dream just like juhi said, she struggle to let herself loose from him.

“ i wont let you hurting me anymore not even in a dream “ she shouting, then she start to kick wildly while surya shock seeing his little bird fighting him back, jodha try to loose his tight grip on her hand which fail and in desperation to get away from him she bite his hands so hard that she taste a blood in her mouth.

“ aaaaghhhhhh “ surya shouting in pain then he let jodha go, he see her bite mark on his hands then he looking at her who in wild state with blood on her lips, jodha wipe out the blood with her hands “ you bitch “ surya try to attack jodha but jodha with quick take the belt that drop by surya when they fighting, she start to whipped to surya.

“ you bastard . . i have enough . . i wont feel fear anymore, i will fight you even if i must die but wont let you destroy my life again “ jodha keep whipped surya, surya try to avoid it but his little bird leave no stone to fight him, eventhough she is crying but with determination fight him, then he stop avoiding the whipped and take it, he feel no pain when the belt hit his skin he just keep looking at his little bird disappointing.

While in her room jodha sit on bed and she doin exactly what in her dream do, her hands move as if she is whipped someone “ i wont let you hurt me again surya . . i wont “ said jodha with her eyes still close, jalal just dumbstuck watching jodha, first he was shock when jodha suddenly sit on bed and start to fight someone, he want to wake her up but he decide to wait and see what happen and he feel his blood boiling hearing jodha calling surya name, so he think jodha must have a nightmare bout that bastard, then jalal decide he seen enough, he reach jodha and and hold it together then he shake jodha shoulders.

“ jodha . . jodha .. sweetheart . .  wake up “ jodha feel someone shake her shoulders and when he open her eyes she watching jalal, he looking at her with concern and anger in his face.

Still disoriented jodha looking around she wipe out sweat from her forehead, jalal almost run to kitchen and bring a water for her then come back give the glasses, jodha drink it like she is suffer from thirtiness then she give back the glasses to jalal after finish it, jalal put the glasses on a small table beside bed and he sit in front of jodha, he wiped a tears from her face.

“ you have nightmare nightmare ? “ he ask jodha and she nod “ want to talk bout it ? “ he ask again and she nod for second time.

“ i start to have this nightmare after . . hmm you know “ said jodha and jalal nod as a sign that he understand what she mean “ it keeps coming back . . surya wont let me in peace even in my dream, i start to scare to falling asleep and had insomnia for couple month, but after had few session with aunty juhi . . . “

“ who is aunty juhi ? “ ask jalal curious.

Jodha look jalal with a little shy “ she is my best friend mother and she is .. hmm psychiatrist . . . “ she said with low voice and bow her face, she know society sometimes still assumed that only crazy people who being treatment by psychiatrist.

 Jalal hold jodha chin and pull it up so their eyes meet “ sweety . . . don’t feel shamed . . im glad you seeking help from professional rather than let youself deal with it alone “ there is a glimps of happiness in jodha’s eyes when she hear her words.

“ so .. after i got help from her . . i start to live my life with normal again and no more nightmare, its not completely gone , it still come sometimes but not very often, and almost a year and half im free from that nightmare, but i had it again recently and it’s coming everyday, i scared to close my eyes and had sleep problem again . . “

Jalal squeeze her hands gently “ this nightmare . . is it bout surya ? “ ask jalal, and jodha looking at jalal and nod “ what had he done ? “

“ he .. he . . like to beaten me, or whipped  me with his belt and sometimes he attemped to ..to . . rape me “ jalal really want to kill this son of bitch, even in her dream he still hurt her “ but tonigh i fight him “ jodha still remember how she fight with surya.

Jalal giving a smile pride to jodha “ really . . that’s good sweety . . i hope you give him a hell of fight “

“ i kick him .. i bite his hands till it’s bleed then when he try to attacked me i take his belt and start to whipped him . . . . “ jodha tell jalal her fight with surya, eventhoug it just a dream but it feel so real,jalal listening to her story in between he sometimes kiss jodha hands “ and when i keep whipped him you wake me up “

Jalal touch jodha cheeks “ im very sorry that you must have bear soo much pain and i didn’t be there for you “ said jalal regrettably, jodha cant say anything she just watching jalal with regret, pain and suffer in his eyes “ can i ask you something ? “

Jodha nod “ what “

“ i know perhaps i shouldn’t ask you this “ he said with uneasy “ but i want to know . . when he started to abused you ?”

She is bushing all suddenly and jalal don’t know what make her like that , jodha try to avoiding jalal eyes she feel really shy to tell him the truth but he had right to know “ hmmm .. since . . . “

“ since when jodha ? “ he encourage her to be honest with him.

Jodha feel more shy and nervous “ since our wedding night “ she said in whispering.

Jalal just sit there almost not believe with what he hears “ shit “ he curse “ he start abusing you in day one you became his wife ? “ jalal asking with curiosity.

“ yes . . . “

“ why ? did he try to make an excuse why he  . .  “ jalal can’t continue because he is in too much anger.

“ he was really upset because . . .  “

“ because what ? “

Jodha bow her face then say it “ because i called out your name when he . . he romance me “

Jalal eyes wide open in shock, he shake his head as if he hear it right “ hold on .. hold on . . . “ he say while looking at jodha who still bow “ look at me jodha “  ask jalal and jodha rise her face and its completely red as a proof she is really blushing and shy “ say it again “

“ unintentionally when we hmmmm you know  . . . I called out your name, and he demand to know who is akbar so i told him the truth, surya became very angry and start to hit me then stop so he can start to drink and in the end he hit me again and almost to rape me but he passed out “ this revelation really make him shock to the core.

“ did he . . did her ever forcing himself on you ? “ he ask in shaking voice, he don’t a heart to said rape word to her.

“ sometimes he almost success to rape me but in the end he just leave alone and go to somewhere else to fulfil his desire . . we never consummate our wedding . . . . “

“ you are virgin ? “ he cut her and again with blushing she nod.

His shaking hands wipe his face “ ya Allah . . she still pure just like the first time i met her, even i want to kill surya but i must thank him for leaving my jojo pure , im ready to have her no matter what but to be her first man and last im very gratefully ya Allah “ he thank God for this beautiful gift, he get his jodha back, so there is only one thing in his mind and he will make it happen, very soon.

Jalal move close to jodha and hold her face with both hands and capture it “ listen jodha . . i love you very much and now i have you back i wont let you go again, no matter what i wont lost you again . . . “

“ but you already engage to ruqaiya . . i won’t and don’t want to come between in between you two “ she remind him bout their situation.

Jalal let go of her but he hold her hands and kiss it then take it to his heart “ my engagement and ruqaiya are arranged one and i don’t love her . . . “

“ but you kissed her in your engagement party “ she cut him fast.

Jalal smile with sadly “ i kissed her to hurt you . . and it’s pretty good idea that time but soon i regret it, let me take care of that matters . . . all i know is i want you “ he stated it with clear.

Jodha shakes her head “ no . . no jalal . . i don’t want to start our relationship like this .. no i don’t want to, we .. you will be become hot news  . . “ she refuse

Jalal imprisoner her eyes with his full determination eyes “ listen jojo . . . in case you don’t realize but i don’t ask your agreement, i love you, i want you and i will marry you . . period .. i don’t care what people think bout me and never will, all i care and think is you . . . ‘

“ but .. but . . “ then suddenly jalal kiss her, he kiss her very gentle, it a very sweet kiss.

Jalal broke the kiss and giving her a sexy smile “ you talk too much jojo . . “ jodha touch her lips and looking at him with shy, but then she determined to not give in soo easy.

“ i’m very serious jalal . . i don’t want to become the third party between you and . . . “

“ you better sleep again jojo . . its still 2 am .. you need rest as i need rest since tomorrow i have important appointment . . “ he lay on bed and take jodha with him, jodha lay his head on jalal chest.

“ but jalal . . . “ she keep protest.

“ ssstttt . . sleep jojo “ he said, he put his arms around her and in couple minutes he heard jodha smooth breath, she already falling asleep, he caress her hair and there are big smile in his face and happiness in his eyes, finally he get her back into his life, he will make sure he will never lost her again, he already have plenty of plans for her and and with a peace in his minds he falling asleep. Outside the moon and stars shining with bright make the dark sky look very beautiful, just like two people who finally find the shining stars in their dark life, and they seal their fate as unseparable soul.