Chapter 3

Chapter 3

          What do you do when the one who broke your heart is the one who can fix it

Nervously jodha play her watch, she keep her head down as she try to gain all her courageous to face the woman in front of her, she already come 15 minutes a go and still lost her voice.

Juhi observe jodha who clearly feel nervous, she knew something wrong happened to jodha when moti told her that jodha fainted at work, and she saw the evident of jodha tiredness from lack of sleep time, she had a guess what happened to her but she need jodha to tell by herself.

“ Jodha “ she call her gently and will slowly jodha raise her head and finally look at her “ do you want to tell me what’s buggin you ? “

Jodha take a deep breath “ aunty . . those nightmares are coming back, everytime i closed my eyes he is coming “ juhi heart break looking at her desperation eyes “ he just cant stop torturing me .. what should i do aunty “ she add with sad, jodha start to hug herself as if it can shield her from the world.

Juhi standing and move toward jodha, she sit beside her then she carres her head with love “ jodha sweety . . look at me “ said juhi and with teary eyes jodha turn her head aside “ sweety . . he cant hurt you anymore, the judge already punished him 15 years jail sentences, he cant reach you and remember that the last time he beaten you, you fight jodha, you give him hell so the neighbour heard what really happening and called the police .. do you remember that ? “ jodha nod as she remember that day crystal clear “ so now just like how you fight him hard that day i want you fight him in your dream, remember he cant hurt you .. its your dream so you have power to beat him, he enjoying your fear so don’t give it to him, i know it will really hard but show him no fear, you have done that once so in reality so do it again, you are very stong woman jodha, with all that bad experiences you must endured you survived, you are back even when you must crawling from the deep dark hole but here you are … im very proud of you my child “ said juhi with proudly, jodha feel something heavy being taken away from her heart then she throw herself into juhi arms and cried, she cried for all those restless night because of those nightmares, she cried for her heart which broken once again and she cried for the man she could never able to reach.

Juhi give her motherly hug , she let her cry , let her release her fear, her sadness then after she tired from crying she only can hear her sob.

“ aunty . . . “ call jodha in the middle of her sob.

“ yes sweety . . . “

“ do you remember once i told you bout one guy that i had serious relationship before i married to surya ? “ she ask

Juhi try to collect her memory and she remembered when jodha told her bout that guy “ hmmmm . . if im not mistaken his name is akbar .. am i right ? “

Jodha move away and lean on her back to the couch, she wipe out her tears with her palm “ his real name is not akbar “

“ what you mean jodha ? “ ask juhi confusing.

Still in sob “ aunty . . do you know a billionaire name jalaluddin Muhammad ? “

Juhi remember moti mentioned that name once “ I’ve heard moti mentioned that name . . he is one of richest people in the world “ said juni “ what its all have to do with your akbar ? “ juhi more and more confusing now.

“ akbar and jalaluddin Muhammad are the same person “ said jodha, juhi shink her forehead when she try to put everything in one then she give jodha shock face when finally she realize jodha words.

“ ooh God . . your akbar is jalaluddin Muhammad ? , that jalaluddin Muhammad ? “ she tried to making sure she don’t get wrong.

Jodha look at juhi with sadly smile “ yes aunty . . that jalaluddin Muhammad, and i met him that night, when i help to supervised an event you remember ? the engagement party “

Juhi nod “ yes i remembered that event “ then some the truth strike her “ isn’t that night he was being engaged to the famous model ruqaiya sultan ? “ she ask with shock.

Jodha “ yes he is the one and only “

Juhi really don’t know what to do “ ooh my poor child . . . but you said you met him, did you talk to him ? “

“ oh yes aunty we talked .. at least he talked “ said jodha ” he talked how he hate me, despised me, how i betrayed him, throw away his love for me , its like he burst his anger and his hatred towards me “ she add with bitter.

Juhi close her mouth she cant believe that fate will play such a cruel joke , she cant imagine how jodha felt that time “ im sorry jodha .. why you didn’t tell me bout this earlier ? “

“ i need time to accepted all of this . . that night i found out that the man i love is not the man i used to know, the one i love is ordinary akbar not the billionaire one, no wonder when we were in relationship he didn’t want tell to anyone, it would be ashamed for him if media or even his family found out bout our relationship “ tears start to falling again on jodha cheeks and she wipe out it harshly “ when i watched him that night . . i realize his world very different with mine , she seem soo high up above soo far away out of my reach “

Juhi take jodha hands and hold it with gentle “ do you still love him jodha ? don’t see him as akbar or jalaluddin Muhammad, just see him as a man, you still love him don’t you ? “

“ yes … “ answer jodha whispering “ it’s pathetic right aunty ? i still love the man who broke my heart, no matter how much how much paint he gave to me, still cant get him out of my mind “

Juhi smile hearing jodha’s words “ child its not pathetic, sometimes we can’t see logic in love, it drive us doin something beyond our minds and sometimes we act fool because of love, love is very powerfull once you start to love someone it almost impossible to stop it . . but right now i don’t want you too think too much bout this, i believe God have a beautiful plans for you, you are still young, beautiful, smart and believe it that there is someone outhere waiting for you . . . “ jodha in deep thinking hearing juhi words “ but next time jodha when you find your prince charming he will have to face me fisrt “ jodha smile to her cute warning.

“ aunty i don’t want prince charming .. i want someone who will make me his princess “ said jodha, juhi see a glimpse of hope in her eyes and she is glad that it’s a good sign.

Juhi pinch jodha chin slowly “ that man will be the most lucky man in the world to have such a wonderfull girl like you “ jodha smile with happy as she already forget a moment before she still live in terror but juhi very happy with it, all jodha need is attention, caring and love, and when jodha get that she will completely overcome her dark past.

Ruqaiya and amrita finally meet up and ruqaiya telling her bff incident in jalal office, and amrita feel really concern bout her friends.

“ Ruqaiya . . if you and jalal didn’t have feeling for each other what the needs to continue this relationship, he seem very cold and unreachable “ said amrita.

Ruqaiya looking at her best friend as if she is loosing her mind “ you kidding right ? you know how rich he is ? not to mention how powerfull he is “

“ everyone who live in high class know exactly who is jalaluddin Muhammad akbar but is it worth it to live your life loveless just for the sake of money, fortune and social status ?, you dumped shahid just to pursue jalal eventhough you know shahid love you a lot “ said amrita, she know her best friend come from rich family too so she feel that why she still obsesse with jalal fortune and his social status.

“ listen amrita .. it’s once in a lifetime opportunity that i can be mrs. Jalaluddin Muhammad and i will not let anything or anyone getting in the way not even his cold or monster behaviour . . and beside my father wont let him hurt me, no one dare to mess with hindal mirza “ said ruqaiya with arrogantly.

Amrita just shake her head because she will never understand how ruqaiya mind works “ i just hope you wont regret it because jalal is untamed lion, and I bet you wont be able to tame the iceman “ she said and ruqaiya looking at amrita with angry.

“ are you underestimate me ? “ she ask with hight tone.

“ no cher i just state what I feel “ said amrita with calm.

Ruqaiya pouted to amrita, she hate when everyone start to telling her that she wont ever be able to tamed jalal, but she still believe she can do that, eventhough today she is very shock with his behaviour but her father will teach jalal a lesson, eventhough his father not riddiculous rich like jalal but he is quite powerfull too in business world so he wont intimidate by jalal power.

Amrita watching ruqaiya lost in her own mind, she really feel sorry for her because she dumped a man who truly love her just for the sake of jalal, may be ruqaiya hasn’t realize yet that she lost something special now but one day she will realize and she hope its not too let for her that time.

Mughal Mansion

Mirza  just got arrive at home when he see his mother at door, mirza climb out from car and walking towards the house “ salam ammijaan “

“ salam mirza . . where is jalal ? “ she ask, mirza can see concern and worry on her face.

“ bhaijan leave office earlier, he had something to do “ mirza answer “ what’s wrong ammijaan ? is there something wrong ? “

Hamida ask mirza to go with her to garden and they both sit on a chair “ I’ve just got a call from hindal mirza, he is quite piss off bout jalal being angry to ruqaiya today at jalal office and he demand jalal apologize to ruqaiya personally as soon as possible “ mirza curse that bitch because with cleverly she is using his father for making pressure on jalal and damn that hindal mirza for involving his mother into this mess, they are gonna pay big when jalal find out bout this, but suddenly mirza got an idea to help his brother engagement broke off, and he smile happy like a wolf who just got last supper and hamida feel confusing looking at mirza who all happy happy “ mirza “ called hamida.

With still cunning smile on his face he look at her “ yes ammijaan . . . “

“ why you smile like a fool ? “

“ hahahah oh my God ammijaan . . you break my heart how can you said this sexy smile as a fool smile “ mirza pouted cutely.

Hamida laugh “ ok ok . . my mistake . . why you smile with sexy like that ? “ correct her.

Mirza nod with satiesfield “ nothing special ammijaan but im very glad that finally i can find a way to help bhaijan “ said mirza

“ help jalal with what ? “ ask hamida worry.

Mirza take hamida hands and hold them very gently “ listen ammjiaan i cant tell you anything right now since i already give my words to bhaijan but i want you to know that whatever bhaijan and i do, we do it for bhaijan happiness, he is been taking care us for years and always thinking our happiness now its time for him to think his happiness “ said mirza.

Hamida now feel something is wrong “ mirza you really make me worry .. what exactly happened between jalal and ruqaiya ? “

“ ammijaan .. ammijaan . . “ mirza try to calm her “ listen ammijaan . . there is nothing to worry as per now the storm hasn’t come, but ammijaan i want to ask something .. “ hamida nod “ if and i said if bhaijan and ruqaiya engagemen broke off do you have any objection with that ? “ ask mirza with straight.

Hamida really shock mirza ask something like that “ you better come clean mirza and tell me everything “

“ no ammijaan i cant do that .. all i want to know is that will you feel disappointing if bhaijan and ruqaiya marriage being call off ? “ he ask again.

“ I arranged jalal and ruqaiya engagement because i want to see jalal having someone special in his life, he always alone, eventhough have us but he will need someone by his side, who will be with him through good and bad time, all i care is jalal, you and bakhsi happiness “ said hamida , mirza kiss hamida hands with love, he always admire her mother.

“ and we are as a kids always think you happiness ammijaan . . the reason I ask you those question is that there is huge possibility bhaijan will call off the marriage and if that really happen the media will turns every rock to find the reason why bhaijan call it off so i just want you to prepare your self if that is really happen “ explain mirza.

Hamida smile at how jalal and mirza always make sure she and bakshi protected but they are not weak “ mirza i knew jalal accept this marriage arrangement because of me and may be deep down i always know that it just a matter of time until jalal feel enough, all matters to me is jalal happiness “ said hamida with love for her eldest son.

“ I bet if bhaijan is here he will very happy to listen to your words ammijaan “ mirza look at his mother with proud and love.

Hamida pinch mirza cheeks “ so whatever you and your bhaijan plans just let me know when me and bakhsi need to bring guns “ said hamida jokingly.

“ you are wonder woman you know that ammijaan “ praise mirza.

Hamida laugh happily “ of course im a wonder woman . . to have stubborn kids like you all i will need super power “ mirza laughting so hard then he ask ammijaan to come inside because it start to feel cold and he doesn’t want his super mother getting sick, with still joking both of them come into house.

Jalan look at his watch and its 8.30 pm, he already sit there for 2 hours, he is collecting his courage, his heart, his strength to finally face the woman he love, he watched jodha already back to apartment 2 hours a go, she was driven by an middle age woman, they talk little bit then the woman go and jodha go inside her apartment building, he is been waiting for her and finally she come home, and while waiting for her jalal just sit inside the car, he feel bad for bobby ant driver who trap with him inside the car, jalal take a deep breath “ it’s time “ he said to himself.

“ bobby “ he call the head of his body guards and he turn his back to face jalal.

“ yes bos “

“ I must take care something very important here and i don’t know how long it would take, but im not coming back by midnight let the others go home to take a rest and come back here in the morning and bring me new dress because i have important meeting tomorrow “ bobby watch jalal with naughy smile on his face because his bos important matter must be her the very beautiful lady who just got home 2 hours a go, jalal see the naughty smile one bobby face and he feel like to smash his smug face because he know what is bobby thinking.

“ ok bos your wish is our command “ said bobby, jalal then climp out from car and he acros the road to reach jodha apartment bulding, then open door and climb up the stairs, jodha apartment in second floor, with every stairs he clims he feel his heart beating so fast but he try to control himself, and finally he arrive in fron of jodha apartment, its number 9 apartment based on data he received from private investigator, he blowing a breath before he knock the door.

Jodha is just bout to drink milk when she hear knock on her door, she put the milk on dining table and walk towards the door when she hear the knock for the second time “ hold on “ she said.

Jalal feel more tension and nervous when he hear her voice then before he can think again he hear jodha unlock the keys and the door open, both jalal and jodha frozen when their eyes meet for the first time and a few minutes they are just looking at each other but suddenly jodha back to her sense and with angry she close the door but jalal move very qick. He put his feet on the door and hold it with his hand so jodha cant close the door.

“ move your feet .. go away “ she yell while trying soo hard to close the door.

“ we need to talk jodha . . . “

“ I don’t want to talk thank you . . last time we met you’ve talk enough “ said jodha, with frustration she kick jalal feet but suddenly with his strength he push the the door soo it open now make jodha really upset.

“ invite me in jodha “ he ask her nicely.

“ I don’t want to invite you in not in a milllons years . .  .  “

“ invite me in jodha or we can talk like this . . i have no problem if you prefer we talk here but i guess you don’t want to disturb your neighbour “ said jalal with hidden threat to make a scene there if jodha wont invite him in.

With a hard heart she let him in then he come inside , close the door and lock it, jodha already walking towards small living room, jalal looking around her apartment, it dominate by broken white color, there are not too much stuff here, there are a not too big sofa , small chair and table , a small tv table with not too big tv on it, a small dining table with two chair, a small refrigerator, jalal just realize that all stuff in jodha apartment in small size may be because the apartment it self not too big but he like it here, its very homey.

Jodha sit on sofa and watch jalal who without a shame lookin around her apartment like he is inspecting something and she wait in nervous waiting his approval, then jalal look at jodha who is watching him and he raise his eyebrow “ finish inspect my apartment . .  ? “ she said in sarcasm, jalal smile then he sit on sofa beside jodha and she with intentionally move a little bit so they distance between them and jalal notice that.

“ so what do you want to talk about ? “ ask jodha, she refuse to see his face so she keeping her focus up front, jalal look at her who refuse to face him.

“ firstly i want to apologize for my behaviour at the last time we met “ said jalal with regret “ what i said that day to you very cruel and i wish i taken back those words “

“ well too bad you’ve already said those words . . you can’t taken back what you have said and now its in my mind “ jodha bow her head and with sad she remembered how each his painfull words stabed her heart just like a knife.

“ that time i wanted to hurt you . . to make you suffered . . to make you felt what i felt “ said jalal with honestly, he want to be honest with her bout his feeling “ for the last 4 years i hated you , i cursed you and  i though you are just cold hearted bitch who betrayed me “

“ well congratulation your mission is a success . . “ her voice is so low that jalal almost couldn’t her it.

“ Look at me jodha “ he ask nicely but she shake her head “ look at me please . . jojo “ jodha freeze for a moment when she heard him calling her by her petname, in the past he likes to call her by that name and then against her will her body take its own action, she turn her head and look at him, what she see in his eyes make her hold of her breath, there too much emotions in his eyes sad, regret, concern and yearning.

“ why you do this . . why you call me by that name ? “ she ask with sad and upset.

“ I like call to call you by that name . . . “

“ but i don’t  . . “ she snap “ just say what you what you want to say then leave “ she really want him to go before she break down, she don’t want to break in front of him.

“ im afraid you cant get rid off me easily this time “ said jalal with confident and determation “ i wont go before we clear everything what happened 4 years a go . . . “

“ for God sake . .  “ jodha stand and looking at him with angry “ there’s nothing to clear and i want you leave now “

Jalal raise from his seat and now they both standing, its like they ready to fight “ nothing . . nothing to clear ? are you kidding me ? you never told me the reason why you betrayed me and married someone one else, you even didn’t bother to call me . . . “

Now jodha really get mad how come he throw the blame on her for his own mistake “ didn’t bother to call you . . . I’ve called you until i lost count how many times, I’ve send you message but you never reply, i even came to your apartment but you weren’t there, everyday like a fool i was came to your apartment waiting for you, i’ve searched for you but you were gone . . you no where to be found, you are gone just when i needed you the most “ jalal very shock to hear that, but he didn’t get any call or message from her.

“ but jodha . . i didn’t get any call or message from you “ he said still in shock with what jodha just reveal.

“ yeah right . . . how convenient now you say that “ said sarcastic jodha ‘ I’ve been a fool to believe whatever you said, i believe in your love, i believe in your sweet words, i believe in you promises and look what it gets me . . i even belive your name akbar and turns out everything was just a lie . . . “

“ the only lie i told you was my work, i didn’t work at one of big company .. i owned it, but rest are the truth, my father’s name humayun , my mother hamida, my brother mirza and my sister bakshi .. they all real, and akbar is really my name . . “ jodha look at jalal with confusing “ my full name is jalaluddin muhammad akbar but most of people call me jalaluddin Muhammad . . only people from business world mention me with my full name “ jodha totally shock so akbar is his real name too but she refused to believe that he didn’t lie bout others.

“ oke fine . . you didn’t lie bout your name but you lie bout other, you never love me how can you love me im just an ordinary girl while you . . . .  “ in speed of light jalal hold jodha face with his two hands and  look straight into her eyes.

“ listen jodha . . . i truly love you . . then and now . . still love and will always love you “ for a moment jodha and jalal just looking at each other and jodha see the truth in his eyes, he is indeed love her but that’s change nothing, jodha break the connection and release herself from him then she step back a little bit, jalal know she believe in his love but there still one fact he need to know  “ tell me jodha . . why you married someone else “

“ there is no use to talk bout that now . . . “

“ just humor me jodha . . tell me “

Jodha hear determination in his voice, he will not leave this matter, jodha take a deep breath before she tell him the day her bad fate sealed “ on one night i heard my father told my mother that a quite rich family giving marriage proposal, they want me to married their eldest son surya and my father agree to their proposal, i was really shock because i don’t want want to marry him, i love you and want to marry you only, so the next morning with a liitle courage i confront him, i told him that i knew his plan but i wont agree to it because i have a man that i want to marry so i told him bout you, he was very angry and he wont let me marry you so he will arrange the wedding to be held soon, i wish very panic didn’t know what to do, i called you and send you message but you never called back or reply  . . . “ she look at jalal with accusation in her eyes.

“ I swear in the name of Allah i never get any call or message from you . . but i will look into this matter later . . please continue “ jalal mind still in the cloud regarding her claim bout the call ans message but just like he say he will look to that matters.

“ and so couple times i come to your apartment but you never there “

“ that time i have back to mumbai to meet my father and told him that i love one girl and want to married her “ jodha look at jalal with distrust “ its true jodha . . but unfortunetly my father got heart attacked and died on the way to hospital and i trap into chaos “

Jodha close her mouth as shock to hear his father death “ im sorry for your lost “ she sad with sadly.

Jalal nod “ thank you … back to your story, what happened next “

“ My father found out bout me searching for you and he was happy that you are out the picture so his plan will goin smoothly, but for the first time in my life i fight him, i refused to marry surya no matter what and he .. he . . . “ jodha closed her eyes, she still can feel the pain eventhough that happen a long time a go.

Jalal can guess what he did but he want jodha said it all “ he what jodha ? what he did ? “

Jodha open her eyes and jalal can see shame there “ he beat me . . . “

Jalal grip his fist so tight to control his anger “ how bad he beaten you up ? “

“ pretty bad “ she said in low voice “ he only stop when mother come and stop him, and later on night my mother ask me bout you and i told her everything and she was very sad but she want me to be happy so the next morning after father leave for work mother called a taxi and help me to runaway, she gave me some money and made me promise to be happy with you and then so i leave and that was the last time i saw her alive “ tears start to fall and she id not bother to hold it back and jalal heart in pain looking at her tears  “ and that day i wait for you outside your apartment, i wait the whole day . . . “

“ ya Allah . . you wait for me outside with weak body that been beaten up ? “ he ask horrified and she nod, ha walking around to express his frustration, oh dear God . . he wish he was with her that time, she needed him that time but he was not around.

She watching jalal walking aroud on edge but she continue her story “ then i’ve got called from father that mother is in hospital, i want to keep waiting for you but i need to see mother, when i arrived at hospital they already put mother in icu and she is in critical condition, father said that mother fall from stairs and her head hit the floor really hard and slip into come due to internal bleeding, but i saw some bruise on mother face that i doubt from falling but i cant do anything and that day my fate being sealed, he blackmailed me to marry surya or he wont pay mother hospital care “ jalal stop dead and looking at jodha with disbelief, he know her father such an ass but to blackmailed her own daughter by refusing his own wife hospital care wah he was really something “ so i married surya but its ironic that mother passed away the day after my wedding “ she chocked.

Jalal cant hold it anymore, he come to jodha, pull her against him and hug her , at first jodha refuse and try to escape but he hug her soo tight so she wont be able to escape and finally she give in, she cried on his chest, his shirt now wet by her tears but he don’t care, to finally hold and hug her is like getting back his air to breath, he let her to cried while his one hand move to jodha head and caress her hair with gentle, he cant believe for all this years he blamed her for his pain, his suffer but it turns out he is the one the major reason for all her pain, if only he didn’t go to mumbai that time may be everything will be different, he is the reason jodha must bear all the assault and beaten from bastard father and ex husband, tears falling from his eyes remembering images of all her wounds from beaten by his ex husband, he kiss jodha head with and tighten his hug.

“ im sorry sweetheart . . it was all my fault, i blamed,cursed and angry to you for all these years, but it turns out there is no one to be blamed but my self . . . im really sorry sweetheart “ his said with hoarse and he still hear jodha sobbing “ ya Allah . . . my stupidity made you must to bear all the beaten and assault by your ex husband . . . “ suddenly he feel jodha frozen.

She look up to him and he see shame,disgusted and horrible in her eyes “ you know ? “ she ask in whisper.

Jalal nod “ I know bout your abusive ex husband and saw the pictures . . . . “ jalal stop when he see horror in jodha face.

Then suddenly jodha feel disguting to herself , he seen her in her worst condition he must be feel sicks looking at that pictures, jodha need to get away from him now … jodha get herself out from his arms and almost run headed to bedroom but jalal caugh her in the middle, she stuggle to get loose , he try to hold her back but she fight will her power the finally jalal hug her from back, he hold her arms and put it together around her body with cover it by his own arm.

“ let me go “ plead jodha between her sob, still struggle to get loose from him.

Refusing her pleading he hold her from back more tight, then suddenly he feel jodha body slip off and both sink on the floor, jodha cried out , jalal put his arm around her shoulders and pull her to his body, jodha’s free hands touch his arms around her shoulder and grip it hard while she cried her heart out.

Jalal kiss jodha’s head hard “ let it go sweetheart . . let it go . . don’t hold it back . . share your pain with me, let me bear it too so i can take it away “ he said in painful, for almost 20 minutes jodha cried released all her pain and agony and jalal with her all the way, he keep holding jodha and couple times he wiped tears on his cheeks, then her cried start to change to sobbed, jodha feel exhausted its like all her strength go into air and somehow she thank jalal holding her if not may be she already fainted coz she now she feel her eyes soo heavy, then she feel jalal move, he take one her arm and put it around his neck and jodha rest her head on his shoulder, then he put one his arm behind her back and one behind her both knee then he lift her up and take her to bedroom, bedroom door already opened so he can straight come in, he lay exhausted jodha on bed her eyes almost completely close, then he open his coat and leave his shoes on the floor, he climb on the bed and lay beside jodha then he lift jodha body little bit and slide his arm under her head, he kiss her forehead gently then pull her close, jodha rest her head on jalal chest and she feel something warm flow into her heart washing all the pain inside, and she feel strong yet gentle grip around her as if it guard her from bad thing, so for the first time in her life since her miserable life  she feel relax and safe.

Jalal hear jodha mumble in her sleep “ sssttt . . . sweety . . im here . . im here “ he whispered and hold her more tight to make her sure that he is with her, then he listen to jodha breath and know that jodha already in deep sleep, his heart break again when he saw her reaction when he mentioned bout her old wound and bruised, oh my God did she think he will feel disgust with her ? , hell he feel disgust with that surya her ex husband, he pray that God will give him one chance to repay all the wound and bruised that he gave to jodha, he will repay hundred time worst.

“ don’t worry jodha .. start today i wont let anyone lay a hand on you even just to touch your shadow they must face me and i will make sure they taste hell “ he promise with determined to sleeping jodha, and with that jalal close his eyes and fall asleep.

It almost midnight and bobby guess that bos will never come back, so he ask other bodyguard to go home and come back again in the morning and not forget to bring new clothes for the big man, then bobby smile because it’s the first time his bos sleepover at woman’s place, and he know this one is very special to him, he’s been with jalal for almost 3 years and he’s not like other rich guy who like to change woman every weeks, may be he is not living like a monk specially when he first assigned as his bodyguard, but the last 2 years he maintain not get involve with any woman and he must confess he salute for his behavior but with his business consume almost his time he guess its impossible too to have such personal life, then bobby look at the apartment building and wonder who is this beautiful woman, jalal seem very smitten and hook by her and just like the information he just got his bos will have this woman by hook an crook, and he happy that finally there’s one woman who can tame his restless bos, and he will do anything to help his bos including join hands with his playboy brother to make that happen, he just hope jalal wont kill him if he found out its mirza plan and he is helping him.

Meanwhile from a peacefully sleep jodha something evil try to ruin it, that nightmare is coming back and this time jodha standing in an empty room, a door start to open and surya standing there with his evil smile and craziness in his eyes, he hold a belt at his hand and start to whip it in the air, then he start to laugh like a mad man watching jodha’s fear, but jodha remember juhi words that it just a dream and he must to fight back and show no fear, so with all the strength she try to show him that she is not scare.

She held her head up “ im scare of you anymore “

Surya laugh “ ooh is that soo ? my little bird not scare of me anymore .. let see if that true “ then surya grab jodha hands so hard, and jodha feel tremendous power to fight him, she wont let him torture her again even in a dream just like juhi said, she struggle to let herself loose from him.

“ i wont let you hurting me anymore not even in a dream “ she shouting, then she start to kick wildly while surya shock seeing his little bird fighting him back, jodha try to loose his tight grip on her hand which fail and in desperation to get away from him she bite his hands so hard that she taste a blood in her mouth.

“ aaaaghhhhhh “ surya shouting in pain then he let jodha go, he see her bite mark on his hands then he looking at her who in wild state with blood on her lips, jodha wipe out the blood with her hands “ you bitch “ surya try to attack jodha but jodha with quick take the belt that drop by surya when they fighting, she start to whipped to surya.

“ you bastard . . i have enough . . i wont feel fear anymore, i will fight you even if i must die but wont let you destroy my life again “ jodha keep whipped surya, surya try to avoid it but his little bird leave no stone to fight him, eventhough she is crying but with determination fight him, then he stop avoiding the whipped and take it, he feel no pain when the belt hit his skin he just keep looking at his little bird disappointing.

While in her room jodha sit on bed and she doin exactly what in her dream do, her hands move as if she is whipped someone “ i wont let you hurt me again surya . . i wont “ said jodha with her eyes still close, jalal just dumbstuck watching jodha, first he was shock when jodha suddenly sit on bed and start to fight someone, he want to wake her up but he decide to wait and see what happen and he feel his blood boiling hearing jodha calling surya name, so he think jodha must have a nightmare bout that bastard, then jalal decide he seen enough, he reach jodha and and hold it together then he shake jodha shoulders.

“ jodha . . jodha .. sweetheart . .  wake up “ jodha feel someone shake her shoulders and when he open her eyes she watching jalal, he looking at her with concern and anger in his face.

Still disoriented jodha looking around she wipe out sweat from her forehead, jalal almost run to kitchen and bring a water for her then come back give the glasses, jodha drink it like she is suffer from thirtiness then she give back the glasses to jalal after finish it, jalal put the glasses on a small table beside bed and he sit in front of jodha, he wiped a tears from her face.

“ you have nightmare nightmare ? “ he ask jodha and she nod “ want to talk bout it ? “ he ask again and she nod for second time.

“ i start to have this nightmare after . . hmm you know “ said jodha and jalal nod as a sign that he understand what she mean “ it keeps coming back . . surya wont let me in peace even in my dream, i start to scare to falling asleep and had insomnia for couple month, but after had few session with aunty juhi . . . “

“ who is aunty juhi ? “ ask jalal curious.

Jodha look jalal with a little shy “ she is my best friend mother and she is .. hmm psychiatrist . . . “ she said with low voice and bow her face, she know society sometimes still assumed that only crazy people who being treatment by psychiatrist.

 Jalal hold jodha chin and pull it up so their eyes meet “ sweety . . . don’t feel shamed . . im glad you seeking help from professional rather than let youself deal with it alone “ there is a glimps of happiness in jodha’s eyes when she hear her words.

“ so .. after i got help from her . . i start to live my life with normal again and no more nightmare, its not completely gone , it still come sometimes but not very often, and almost a year and half im free from that nightmare, but i had it again recently and it’s coming everyday, i scared to close my eyes and had sleep problem again . . “

Jalal squeeze her hands gently “ this nightmare . . is it bout surya ? “ ask jalal, and jodha looking at jalal and nod “ what had he done ? “

“ he .. he . . like to beaten me, or whipped  me with his belt and sometimes he attemped to ..to . . rape me “ jalal really want to kill this son of bitch, even in her dream he still hurt her “ but tonigh i fight him “ jodha still remember how she fight with surya.

Jalal giving a smile pride to jodha “ really . . that’s good sweety . . i hope you give him a hell of fight “

“ i kick him .. i bite his hands till it’s bleed then when he try to attacked me i take his belt and start to whipped him . . . . “ jodha tell jalal her fight with surya, eventhoug it just a dream but it feel so real,jalal listening to her story in between he sometimes kiss jodha hands “ and when i keep whipped him you wake me up “

Jalal touch jodha cheeks “ im very sorry that you must have bear soo much pain and i didn’t be there for you “ said jalal regrettably, jodha cant say anything she just watching jalal with regret, pain and suffer in his eyes “ can i ask you something ? “

Jodha nod “ what “

“ i know perhaps i shouldn’t ask you this “ he said with uneasy “ but i want to know . . when he started to abused you ?”

She is bushing all suddenly and jalal don’t know what make her like that , jodha try to avoiding jalal eyes she feel really shy to tell him the truth but he had right to know “ hmmm .. since . . . “

“ since when jodha ? “ he encourage her to be honest with him.

Jodha feel more shy and nervous “ since our wedding night “ she said in whispering.

Jalal just sit there almost not believe with what he hears “ shit “ he curse “ he start abusing you in day one you became his wife ? “ jalal asking with curiosity.

“ yes . . . “

“ why ? did he try to make an excuse why he  . .  “ jalal can’t continue because he is in too much anger.

“ he was really upset because . . .  “

“ because what ? “

Jodha bow her face then say it “ because i called out your name when he . . he romance me “

Jalal eyes wide open in shock, he shake his head as if he hear it right “ hold on .. hold on . . . “ he say while looking at jodha who still bow “ look at me jodha “  ask jalal and jodha rise her face and its completely red as a proof she is really blushing and shy “ say it again “

“ unintentionally when we hmmmm you know  . . . I called out your name, and he demand to know who is akbar so i told him the truth, surya became very angry and start to hit me then stop so he can start to drink and in the end he hit me again and almost to rape me but he passed out “ this revelation really make him shock to the core.

“ did he . . did her ever forcing himself on you ? “ he ask in shaking voice, he don’t a heart to said rape word to her.

“ sometimes he almost success to rape me but in the end he just leave alone and go to somewhere else to fulfil his desire . . we never consummate our wedding . . . . “

“ you are virgin ? “ he cut her and again with blushing she nod.

His shaking hands wipe his face “ ya Allah . . she still pure just like the first time i met her, even i want to kill surya but i must thank him for leaving my jojo pure , im ready to have her no matter what but to be her first man and last im very gratefully ya Allah “ he thank God for this beautiful gift, he get his jodha back, so there is only one thing in his mind and he will make it happen, very soon.

Jalal move close to jodha and hold her face with both hands and capture it “ listen jodha . . i love you very much and now i have you back i wont let you go again, no matter what i wont lost you again . . . “

“ but you already engage to ruqaiya . . i won’t and don’t want to come between in between you two “ she remind him bout their situation.

Jalal let go of her but he hold her hands and kiss it then take it to his heart “ my engagement and ruqaiya are arranged one and i don’t love her . . . “

“ but you kissed her in your engagement party “ she cut him fast.

Jalal smile with sadly “ i kissed her to hurt you . . and it’s pretty good idea that time but soon i regret it, let me take care of that matters . . . all i know is i want you “ he stated it with clear.

Jodha shakes her head “ no . . no jalal . . i don’t want to start our relationship like this .. no i don’t want to, we .. you will be become hot news  . . “ she refuse

Jalal imprisoner her eyes with his full determination eyes “ listen jojo . . . in case you don’t realize but i don’t ask your agreement, i love you, i want you and i will marry you . . period .. i don’t care what people think bout me and never will, all i care and think is you . . . ‘

“ but .. but . . “ then suddenly jalal kiss her, he kiss her very gentle, it a very sweet kiss.

Jalal broke the kiss and giving her a sexy smile “ you talk too much jojo . . “ jodha touch her lips and looking at him with shy, but then she determined to not give in soo easy.

“ i’m very serious jalal . . i don’t want to become the third party between you and . . . “

“ you better sleep again jojo . . its still 2 am .. you need rest as i need rest since tomorrow i have important appointment . . “ he lay on bed and take jodha with him, jodha lay his head on jalal chest.

“ but jalal . . . “ she keep protest.

“ ssstttt . . sleep jojo “ he said, he put his arms around her and in couple minutes he heard jodha smooth breath, she already falling asleep, he caress her hair and there are big smile in his face and happiness in his eyes, finally he get her back into his life, he will make sure he will never lost her again, he already have plenty of plans for her and and with a peace in his minds he falling asleep. Outside the moon and stars shining with bright make the dark sky look very beautiful, just like two people who finally find the shining stars in their dark life, and they seal their fate as unseparable soul.

Chapter 2

Chapter 2

Jodha had bad dream that night, in her dream a man captured her and hitting her, she is being torture by that man and jodha pleading him to stop but he just laughting and keep hitting her and then he take off his belt and start using it to whimp jodha body with it, jodha crying out in pain, she cried for help but no body come to help her, then the man stop and he start touching her body he rip off her clothes then when he tried to rape her jodha scream in panic.

“ nooooooooooo “ her scream make an echo in her room then suddenly jodha open her eyes and realize all just bad dream, her body wet from sweats and her face wet by tears , jodha close her face by her hands and start to cry “ kanha why I can’t stop this bad dream, why he always come into my dream .. why kanha why, please kanha make it stop “ she pleaded miserably, after that she cant close her eyes again but suddenly jalal, she now know his real name and must getting used to said jalal rather than akbar, his face invading her mind,the last encountered with jalal and how he said those painfull words, how he said that he blamed her for the fall out of their relationship “ you have no idea what you have done to my life, its your love, your promises and your sweet words that ruined my life .. eventhough I hate you and blamed you for the darkness in my life but its ironic that my love for you which kept me alive “ jodha talk to her self, tears still flood on her cheeks.

While in his room jalal is restless, he can’t close his eyes because everytime he close his eyes all he can see is jodha face, he thought he can get her out of his mind but its the opposite she is now under his skin, jalal standing on balcony and see the moon and stars “ why I can’t get you out of my mind jodha . . . damn you jodha .. damn you “ he curse.

A few days had passed after jodha jalal encountered but since then they both cant stop thinking bout each other, at night both restless , without they realize that they are taking each other peace of mind, and fate still will play their part until two people who destined to be together united and become one.

Mughals Coorporation Head Office

Jalal just finish meeting with his ceo, director and manager from some his company, they all come to give presentation for their work, what they have been achieve, what kind and how much profit they given to company, despite they all top employee even some are the head of his company still they feel nervous when it come to face jalaluddin muhammas itself, and with hopefully they wish what they do reach his qualify and satiesfield him to secure their position, but in the end of meeting relief show on their face when jalal find their work amazing and no one getting fire or desrease from their positon today, he is just bout going back to his office follow by adgah, abdul, maham anga when he spot the girl he recognize as jodha co worker standing in front of resepsionist, and adham who didn’t attend important meeting standing right beside that girl clearly flirt with her.

“ badi ammi . . . is adham know that this morning I asked all my ceo, director and top manager to meeting at 9 am ? “ ask jalal, adham is like his brother but when it come to profesional matters jalal see no relation.

There is anger in maham anga face looking adham standing there flirting with girl when he supposed to attend important meeting “ he know jalal, I’ve told him myself bout this meeting “

“ I see “ said jalal without expression then he walk towards receptionist standing behind adham, he put his hand behind his back, adham who don’t realize jalal presence keep flirting with moti, the resepsionists see jalal and they become nervous, they don’t have the gut to look at jalal and just bent down their heads.

Maham anga approach adham and give him anger glace before she give the sign to his back, adham turn back his body and straight facing jalal who staring him with sharp and cold eyes, moti who see maham anga giving sign to adham turn back too and see the one and only jalaluddin muhammad standing there looking at that guy who pathecticly flirt with her.

Adham clear his throat before speak “ jalal … I don’t know you there “ he said with fake smile

“ you have time to flirt with women here but you don’t bother to attend important meeting “ he said coldly.

Adham know he is in trouble judging by how cold his voice “ ooh my God . . the meeting is today ? “ adham hit his forehard with dramatic as in if he is forget bout the meeting.

“ lame excuse wont save you this time, this is the 3^rd times you avoid important meeting and I guess this time I should give you punishment so I can set an example too for other employee that no matter what your position you cant mess with me . . . “

Maham anga who can sense the trouble for her son try to pacify jalal “ jalal . . . “

“ stop badi ammi “ jalal cut her “ you have done enough to cover his mistake but you can’t always make an excuse for him everytime . . “ maham anga try to speak but jalal stop her again “ enough badi ammi . . . adgah khan “ call jalal.

Adgah come forward to jalal ready to do his command “ yes jalal “

“ decrease adham position as ceo in trinity and reassign him as marketing manager .. and call karan ask him to come to my office at 3 pm told him that from today he will be become number one man in trinity and I will give the assignment my self to him “ adgah note everything jalal command in his tablet, he notice maham anga and adham displeasure for jalal decision but he is glad that finally jalal take wise decision regarding adham khan, he know adham neglect lot of his work and let his employe to do his work.

Adham look jalal with angry and almost come to hit jalal if maham not hold his hand “ you bastard . . “ he yell

Jalal keep cool watching adham anger “ listen adham . . if not for bad ammi i have already fire you long way back than, this is my company and everyone will follow my rule including you “

Moti watch with horror when she see adham almost hit jalal but she salute that jalal not loose his cool, he just standing there as if he is not afraid eventhough adham more taller and bigger then him.

Maham anga drag adham from there before her emotional son make more scene, some employee watch the scene and hold their breath when adham bout to hit jalal, but their bos got the iceman title without reason and today they witnessing how he just standing there with cool and seems don’t bother with adham anger,

After maham anga dan adham left others employee back to their work before their bos catch them, jalal told adgah to process administration for adham and karan , adgah leave to handle the matters and now it left jalal and abdul.

Jalal watch moti who still standing there in horror, he approach her and call her “ hello . . . you are the girl who work at event organizer who arrange my engagement party right ? “

Moti back to earth listening to jalal voice “ oh oh yes . . “

“ and what are you doin here ? “ ask jalal

“ my bos send me here to delivery invoice for catering billing for that events “ she said, she really nervous when she must talk with the one of the most richest man in the world.

“ aah I see … abdul “ call jalal and abdul already know what jalal want him to do, he ask moti to give him the invoice and he will take it to head director of finance “ make sure it pay today and called the eo when the payment done “ jalal add before abdul leave.

Moti still mesmerized by this man aura and how he command his people with absolute authority.

“ tell your bos the payment will done today “ he said

“ okey . . thank you sir . . then I will go now “ moti just about to go when jalal call her,  he want to know, he need to know.

“ wait . . . “ moti stop and looking back again to jalal “ are you friend of jodha ? “ he ask moti

Moti looking at jalal with suspicious, why on earth this guy know bout jodha and asking her “ do you know jodha ? “

Jalal know she will feel strange and suspicious he suddenly asking bout her friend “ no I don’t know her, but that night she accompanied my ammijaan and served her, ammijaan asking me to find out how is she doin “ he is not completely lie his ammijaan couple times ask him if he ever meet with jodha again and curious how is she doin.

Moti remember jodha talking with and older lady that night  “ so that lady is his ammijaan “ moti said to herself “ jodha is fine sir, my bos giving her couple days off to rest since she still weak . . . “

“ what’s wrong with her ? is she sick ? “ he ask with worry but moti not notice that.

“ she passed out at office yesterday so my bos give her couple days off, im just about to go to her apartment now . . she leave alone so I will make sure she got the food and everything . . . “

“ live alone ? no family or husband ? “ he ask

Moti shake her hands “ she live alone, her parents died few years back and she is divorcee “ said moti “ so absolutely no husband “ she add without realize her words make a huge effect to the man itself.

Jalal really shock to hear the news “ jodha is a widowed ?? since when ?? “ he ask to himself,

Moti look at her watch and its almost time jodha to take her medicine, she must make sure she take it “ sir . . im sorry but I must go now “ said moti, jalal just nod and moti flew from there.

With the new information he got bout jodha, jalal back to his office and sit on his chair, he really shock to know jodha parents died and she is a widowed, she must feel lonely because her parents is the only family she had, he really curios when jodha divorced and why, suddenly he remembered ammijaan words bout possibility jodha have gone through so much pain and suffer, he want to forget her, put everyting in the past but he cant, something telling him that he must find out what happened to her since she left him and married other guy, he need to know so he finally can get closure and close her chapter in his wife.

Jalal dial a number from his handphone and wait till adgah pick up the phone “ adgah . . come to my office now “ while waiting adgah come to his office, jalal write something on paper then he hear someone knock on the door “ come in “ he said.

The door open and adgah come in and sit on a chair in front of jalal when jalal give him sign to sit “ what’s wrong jalal ? something happen ? “

Jalal give a paper to adgah and he take it and read what’s on it then he look back at jalal with confused “ I want you to hire top private investigator . . I want to know everything in her life for the past 4 years, I want it in detail and need it fast . . I don’t care how much it cost “

Adgah know jalal too well to understand this girl mean something for him, and he always consider jalal as his own son “ jodha sharma “ adgah say the name on paper  “ im sorry jalal if I ask you this, but who is she ? “ ask adgah.

Jalal know that the older man will ask that question and he really want to share this with someone and who will be a better choice rather than him “ she was a girl once I loved dearly “ adgah really shock to hear this, he never knew jalal have a relationship with a girl, he remember all his girlfriends in the past but never heard this girl name.

“ but jalal I never heard even once you talked bout her “

Jalal take a deep breath he understand If adgah being confuse “ I never told bout her to anyone, I have serious relationship with her 4 years a go, she was just turn 19 years old that time and she didn’t know that im jalaluddin muhammad akbar, she knew me as akbar who work as an employee at one of top company in india, and before you ask I was very serious with her and had plan to married her, but abbjaan didn’t allow me to married her because of our different status, he even threat to exclude me from his will and make mirza as an heir of mughals coorporation . . . “ adgah completely shock that humayun doin such riddiculus threat since no one can run this company beside jalal “ and im willing to give up everything for her and that is the reason of our fight and sour relationship “ unbelieveable adgah looking at jalal, he is double shock to hear those revelation from jalal, he never knew jalal can love someone soo much that he was willing to let go of his right and fortune.

“ why you never told me bout this jalal ? “

“ because she is very special to me, for once in my life someone love for who I am not fot what I am, she brough the light in my darkness world, she gave me soo much love, smile and happiness, she show me her simple life and eventhough her life very different with mine but I love it, I didn’t want she knew bout my real life, not until I proposed her but . .  “ his words clung in between

“ but what jalal ? what happen ? “ now adgah really curious bout this girl.

“ the last time me and abujaan met I told him that I didn’t care if he will exclude me from his will and I didn’t care if he wont make me his heir, I will start my own company and I will prove to him that I can and will success on my own, so I decided to married her no matter what it cost and I was just bout to go to her house but suddenly abujaan got heart attack and died on the way to hospital, and after that I got too busy with company matters and not to mention must taking care ammijaan who really broken with abujaan death, and there was mirza and bakhsi, there are a lots of things I must to deal and in process neglect her and not informed her bout my situation, and when finally everything being settle I come to her but as I arrived she was being married to someone else . . . “ jalal cant hide bitterness in his voice and the pain in his eyes and adgah see it all.

“ she dumped you and married to someone else ? “ ask adgah, then remember when jalal seems really broken and sometimes drawn himself with alcohol and act like wounded lion, that time he thougt may be humayun death effected him soo much and with the pressure of work finally take a toll on him but now he know the real reason behind his behavior.

There is sarcastic smile on jalal face “ yes adgah basically she dumped me and married to someone else . . I adore and love her but she broke my heart and betrayed me . . “

Adgah think hard bout this matters “ hmmm . . do you have any idea why suddenly she married someone else ? may be her parents force her ? “ jalal listen to adgah words with shock because he never think like that, his heart too hurt and his mind cloud with anger to think clearly and he was consumed by hatred to even re thinked her behavior, all he cared she break his heart and betrayed him.

“ I never think that way “ he mumble “ I was too angry and too hurt to think another explanation bout her behavior and beside i was in extreme stressfull with the death my abbujan and must . . . “ jalal sit back on his chair and close is face with his hands then he take a deep breath while looking at the ceiling of his office “ geez adgah . . . I don’t know what to think anymore, I was totall shocked when I saw her again, I want and need to hurt her, she must hurt and felt the pain like I felt when I saw her marriage with someone else but now I really don’t know  . . . “ jalal look at adgah with miserably in his eyes, like a little boy who need to reassured that everything is ok.

“ Jalal . . please hold yourself together, let me find out bout her first and I will let you know as soon as I get the news from private investigator, right now all you can do is wait don’t do anything until you know the truth . . “ adgah see jalal nod “ we will talk again when we have all the informations and jalal you know you can talk to me bout everything so when you need someone to talk you I will always be here for you, you are like my son to me and I care you a lot “ he add

Jalal nod and give the thank you look to adgah, this man is more like a father to him rather his own father and he trust him too.

“ ok jalal I must go now so I can start investigation bout this girl “ adgah stand from his seat.

“ ok . . let me know ASAP when you get the informations “

“ will do jalal “ then adgah leave the office leaving jalal alone.

After adgah leave jalal reach a wallet from inside his suit then open it, he take out a picture from inside and looking at it with mix emotion, without he realize he caress the beautiful face in the picture “ jodha “ he whisper then he take the pic to his heart and close his eyes.

Jodha’s Apartment.

Moti cook some foods for jodha, she put the foods in some storage and close it neat before she putin on refrigerator, she watch jodha who laying on the couch she still look weak “ are you feeling better ? “

Jodha look at moti and give her a weak smile “ little bit but guess I will full recovery in few days “

Moti come forward to jodha and sit on small couch and observe her best friend “ be honest with me jodha, what’s wrong ? before you collapsed you’ve seem tired and there was black spot under your eyes like you haven’t sleep for days and you little jumpy everytime someone touch you “ jodha take a deep breath and to avoid moti curious eyes she consentrate her eyes on black spot on a wall.

“ I had that nightmares again . . everytime I closed my eyes he always come and I cant get away from him “ jodha can stil feel the fear and the pain, tears fall down on her cheeks when she remember those nightmares.

Moti jump from her seat then fly to sit beside jodha, she wiped tears on her cheeks “ baby why you didn’t tell me . . why you kept it to youself . . i am your best friend you are like a sister to me and it hurts me when i found you are suffering alone, please don’t kept all your pain by yourself, share with me baby “ said moti with emotional, she remembered exactly how she felt when she and her mom found out that jodha was abused by her husband and they saw with their own eyes nasty bruised on jodha’s body, she would never forget that day and neither her mom.

Jodha looking at moti who lost in her own though and she feel bad because sometimes she can’t share the most darkest day in her life with moti, only her mom who know details bout her life after married to surya and the painfull details of her life that she kept from everyone including from jalal.

“ moti . . “

Moti hear jodha calling her “ yes jodha “

Jodha sit so now she face moti straight “ moti . . you know I love you like my own sister, I want to share everything with you but there are too painfull memories that I even don’t want to remember so how can I share it with you ?, I wish and hope that the nightmares will stop eventually but it keeps coming back and I never could back to sleep after I got that nightmares . . .  “

“ and the consequences you lack of sleep time and finally collapsed when your body cant take it anymore “ said moti and jodha nodding.

“ but you don’t worry . . i already make appointment with your mom to talk bout this nightmares, I supposed to meet her tomorrow “ jodha try to make moti calm.

Moti feel little bit relieved when she hear jodha will talk bout this matters to her mom, at least she will got professional advice, moti really want jodha to come out from this trauma, she still young and beautiful and she notice lots of men who feel interesting in jodha and she just want her best friend happy again, since she married to surya she was changed, moti wish she knew that surya is abusive husband so she could help jodha earlier but she cant changed what already happened and all she can do now is to support jodha and be there for her.

Mughal Mansion

It’s dinner time and everyone ready to have dinner, maids doin their job to serve the family but jalal don’t have appetite, he was restless waiting news from adgah who still waiting full report from private intvertigator he hired, he drowned himself into work the last two days, he intentionally make himself exhausted so when he come home he had no strength left to do or think anything beside sleep, and he was avoided ruqaiya too, he never take her phone, never reply her message even he asked his secretary to never let anyone beside adgah to come into his office, his heart are in mess and he was not in the mood to play as Mr. Iceman.

Hamida, mirza and bakshi banu finish the prayer before eat and start to eat but mirza look at his brother and he observe jalal don’t touch his food and seem his mind not here “ bhaijan … “ call mirza

Hearing someone caling him, he look at his family and see mirza watching him “ yes mirza “ he answer

Mirza point to jalal plate which untouchable “ you don’t touch you food .. you are not hungry ? “

Jalal really can’t eat anything all he want to do no now is just laying “ im sorry . . I don’t feel hungry and i think i have a little bit headache so i will leave now . . . “

Listening jalal unwell hamida start to worry “ are you sick my child ? . . need to call doctor ? “

Jalal smile to his ammijaan “ no ammijaan . . i just feel little bit headache nothing serious . . you guys continue having dinner “

Bakshi feel worry too since she noticed that her bhaijan seem not happy since the engagement party “ i will bring your favorite juice to your room bhaijan “ she said,

“ aaahhh thank you bakhsi . . you are the best “ said jalal happily, then he go upstairs to his room leaving hamida, mirza and bakhsi looking at him with suspicious.

After jalal leave bakhsi looking to her ammijaan and mirza “ ammijaan .. is there something wrong with bhaijan ? “ ask bakhsi

Ammijaan shake her head “ I don’t know what happen to jalal but I noticed he was more quietly there days . . “

“ Ammijaan … “ interrupt mirza

Both hamida and bakhsi looking at mirza “ what’s wrong mirza ? “ ask hamida

“ to be honest ammijaan, bhaijan seem restless, he was like a lion who feel trap in a cage and roar to everyone who have gut to watch him, bhaijan become like this right after the engagement party “ said mirza uneasy “ no body at work who have gut to approach him even maham anga keep her distance “ mirza explained his brother behaviour who become scary there days.

“ but do you think jalal become like this becaue of the engagement ? if he didn’t want this engagement he can refused it, I will never forced jalal to do something he didn’t want to “ said hamida.

‘ relax ammijaan .. I don’t think it because the engagement “ mirza reassure his mother before she start feeling guilty “ but something did happened on engagement party because bhaijan completely changed since that day “ mirza remember he observed jalal on the way back home that day and it seem his bhaijan mind were not with him, he completely shut himself off from the world.

“ ammijaan may be you can talk to bhaijan when his mood getting better . . I don’t like bhaijan like this .. sometimes he looks sad but always hide it whenever he is with us .. I love bhaijan and I want to help him “ said bahksi sadly.

Hamida look at her kids and she feel proud that they both care a lot for their eldest brother “ don’t worry mirza . . bakhsi .. I will talk to jalal and find out what is bugged him “ mirza and bakhsi nod but both busy with their own minds.

Meanwhile in her room ruqaiya getting restless too, she feel something bad will happened and her gut telling her that it’s related to jalal. Since their engagement party she felt something changed in him and now he is avoiding her whenever he can but tomorrow he wont able to avoiding her because she will come to his office and will ignore his strict secretary who always prevent her to meet him and will go straight to his office, she knew what she was sign up to when she agree to this engagement, jalal is crazy rich and only people with no brains will reject him, jalaluddin muhammad akbar is the catch of century and ruqaiya very happy that now he is belong to her, she even dumped shahid her boyfriend for the last couple months for jalal, shahid come from rich family too otherwise she wont accept him as her boyfriend but comparing to jalal fortune he was nothing and now everyone looking at her with jealously especially her number 1 rival stephanie, she was like eaten bitter medicine when she watched her with jalal, that bitch is always want to show to everyone that she was better than her so now she can look other rich guy who equal to jalal, she bet that will very impossible,but ruqaiya fully aware that jalal cold attitude is very something, but that is what makes her want to tamed and conquered him, she will do what others woman cant do .. make jalal falling in love with her and make him her slave, eventough he always acted cold just like iceman and seems not interesting in her but he still man after all and no man immune to her, it just a matter of time before he fall for her “ you are mine jalal and I wont let you go at any cost “ swear ruqaiya with arrogant smile on her face, suddenly she hear notification from her handphone, she open it and see that amrita her bff send her message on whatsapp.

Amrita : congo for the engagement .. sorry cant come because got a job in Australia, just got  back, want to have luch tomorrow ?

Ruqaiya smile reading her bff message and she quick reply

Ruqaiya : glad you are back . . its been so lonely without you cher .. sure we can meet up tomorrow but may be after lunch because will go to jalal office at lunch.

Not for long she got reply from amrita.

Amrita : sure cher .. meet up at the usually restaurant ?

Rukqaiya : yes usual . . see you tomorrow cher.

Amrita : deal

Then ruqaiya put her handphone on the table and already imagine her bff excitement when she tell her bout her engagement party, how surpised when jalal kiss her in public.

Jodha’s Apartment

Jodha just finish her breakfast and already wash the dishes, she is ready to work and in afternoon she have appointment with aunty juhi, she really don’t know what aunty juhi will react when she hear bout her nightmares and bout jalal, jodha feel guilty by not telling it to moti but she is not ready to tell moti the whole story, jodha then wear a jacket since the weather little bit cold these days, she just wear simple outfit, she wear a black floral long dress and a flip lop, jodha don’t like high heels and she will try to avoid wearing it if she can, jodha put her bag on her shoulder then she leave for work.

The cold wind blowing to jodha face when she step her foots outside thank God she tie her hair into ponytail so it wont get mess by wind then jodha start to walk, her workplace not far from apartment, it only need her 20 minutes by walk and she like to walk because its good for her health and soul, jodha don’t realize someone watching her inside a car, jalal already waiting for her to come out since 15 miinutes ago, last night he got jodha apartment address from adgah and he cant wait to catch the glimpse of her, so before he go to office he ask his driver to go to jodha apartment, there is a question look in bobby face his head of body guards but he wont have gut to ask his employer, jalal eyes following jodha since she step out from her apartment building, there is yearning in his eyes when he watch her, then he come out from his car make his driver and bobby who sit in front totally shock, with quick bobby go out from car and follow his employer, he give signal to his men who ride in another car to hold their position.

Jalal following jodha with his eyes keep looking at her and never leave her, he follow her from across the street, he notice some men pay attention to her and give her adoration look which make jalal burning inside, he want to smash those men who dare to look at his jodha then suddenly jalal froze “ how can I said that, she is not mine .. I hate her “ said jalal in his mind but he hear someone talking from his heart “ no .. no you still love her, your hate is just an excuse to cover up your truly feeling .. you still love her despite whatever happened between you two, your mind can play trick on you but I know the secret of your heart “ jalal face show turmoil he feel right now between his heart and mind, then suddenly his phone rings.

Jalal take out his phone and see who is calling then quickly to accept the call “ yes adgah .. you’ve got the report ? “

“ yes jalal .. i have “ answer adgah

“ ok .. will let you know when I reach office “ said jalal then he cut the line, jalal look at jodha’s back for the last time before he rush back to car and rushing his driver to reach office.

Mean while adgah with shock reading reports in his hands, the private investigator give him  every detailed about jodha life, they said when they found something horrible happened to her they decide to dig her past more deeper and with sadly they said what they found are beyond worst, and after reading the reports he really feel bad and sad for this jodha ,its like he watching horror movie, my God he cant imagine what this girl had been goin through and he wonder if jalal knew bout it, but one thing he is sure that jalal will broken when he read the reports, all this years jalal think he is the one who suffered a lot but compared to jodha suffered what’s jalal goin through seems like nothing, adgah look at one of pic that show how badly she is being beaten and he think only animal who can did this to a human especially to a woman, adgah close the reports he don’t have heart to see all the pictures, he really cant imagine how jalal will react because even he don’t know jodha but feel really bad, so cant imagine jalal who loved jodha must see this all.

“ ya Allah … her true reality is opposite with what jalal thought, how will he face it that for the past 4 years he’s been blamed her for no reason “ said adgah with regret.

Mean while Black luxurious Mercedes sedan make a stop in front of mughals corporation head office, 2 bodyguards come out first then open the door for jalal, with a rush jalal go into the huge building following by his bodyguards, every employee that pass by him stand up and with nervous greeting their big bos and usually jalal reply their greeting but today he is not bother to do so, he come to lift which already hold open by his bodyguards then hit the floor to his office.

Maham anga and abdul waiting for jalal in front of his secretary desk, they got important matters to talk bout to jalal, maham anga want to talk bout adham khan, she wish she can persuade jalal to give back adham his old position, it was totally embarrassing when he must work under people he used to command and she was completely ashamed that she is being the laughing stock between employee how they laugh that her own son got pusnihed by jalal.

Both maham anga and abdul watching the elevator door open and jalal come out, jalal see maham anga and abdul, he think both must have something important to talk since they have waiting for him so early, but jalal give them sign to quite then he ask rani his amazing secretary bout his schedule today, rani look at jalal daily plan in her computer “ you have meeting with Mr. Jackson Smith from smith contractor at 11 am, then at 1 pm you have appointment with Mr. Rajesh Kumar from Mumbai bank then . . . “

“ cancel all my appointment today, tell them I have urgent matter and said I really sorry for this inconvenient and rearrange the appointment for tomorrow “ with quick rani make a notes and start to make a phone, then jalal face maham anga and abdul “ what’s the matter ? is there important things you two need to talk bout ? “

Abdul let maham anga to go first “ jalal .. I want to talk bout adham . . . “

“ that’s not important matters badi ammi you can talk to me later “ jalal dismiss her, maham anga feel angry because jalal never dismiss her like that, and she feel ashame since jalal doin that in font of other people, even rani stop her activity when she saw that scene, jalal then look at abdul and waiting for him to say something.

“ I want to talk bout the bail out for ocean pacific hotel “ tell abdul, jalal think for a second.

“ can we postpone it till after lunch ? “ ask jalal.

“ I think it can wait till lunch .. but you must decide it today you want to go or stop with the bail out “ said abdul reminds him

“ ok . . I will ask rani call you when i am ready “ abdul nod as agreement “ so badi ammi you can come this afternoon and talk bout adham, eventhough I don’t know what is more to talk bout him “ said jalal, maham anga want to say something but decide its not the right time.

“ ok jalal .. we will talk later bout this matters .. you seem have important things to do that makes you clear your schedule for today “ said maham anga with curiosity, there is tension in his face eventhough he look soo calm but still she can see the tension.

“ yes badi ammi i have very important things to do . .  “ jalal don’t bother to lie “ so if we are done here im gonna leave you two “ with that claim he ask rani to call adgah come to his office and ask her not to let anyone come in to his office even if it’s her own mother, rani just nod then jalal go into his office.

Maham anga and abdul looking at jalal with confuse “ do you know what happen to him ?, he seems very strange today and tension “ ask maham anga to abdul.

Abdul shake his head “ no mam .. i don’t know what happen to him “ answer abdul then he go from there but maham anga still very curious, jalal been acting very strange lately and she know he avoiding ruqaiya whenever he can, then maham anga see adgah come towards jalal office, he bring envelope in his hands.

Adgah see maham anga and give her greeting “ good morning maham anga “

“ good morning adgah “ greeting maham anga

“ excuse me .. jalal is waiting for me “ said adgah then he leave and knock the door and open it when he hear jalal voice to let him come in, then adgah come in and close the door leaving maham anga with suspicious in her face.

Jalal watching adgah come to his office then he sit on chair in font of him, seeing adgah face he know that he bring bad news, jalal move his body forward and put his hand on his table “ so adgah .. is it really bad ? “ he ask, he cant cover up his worry in his voice.

Adgah give sadly nod “ yes jalal .. its bad .. very bad indeed, i hope i don’t have to say this bad news for you “ then adgah give jalal the envelope in his hands, jalal accept it and start to take out the map inside.

“ what i will find inside ? “ ask jalal, he really feel uneasy.

“ something you wish you never saw “ answer adgah, jalal looking at adgah with surpise “ before you open that map i want to ask something ? “

“ sure .. “

“ how well do you know jodha ? “

Jalal feel confused with adgah question “ what do you mean by that ? “

“ I mean do you know or she ever told you bout her childhood ? “ ask adgah, jalal feel more confuse with adgah puzzle question.

“ jodha told me she had happy family and her mother love her a lot, she wasn’t mentioned her father very much but i assumed that they all were happy . . “ jalal see adgah facial expression “ what’s wrong adgah, now you really scare me “ said jalal.

Adgah looking at jalal with fatherly concern “ read the reports jalal but prepare your self, there are a lot unpleasantly pictures inside, even i don’t have strong heart and stomache to see all the pictures “ warning adgah, now jalal sure his feeling is right.

Jalal take a deep breath and he start to open the map and read the repots, at first his face not show any reaction then suddenly there is completely shock on his face and his eyes wide open as in he don’t believe what he see, then his face turning white, his hands shaken when he looking at jodha pictures, there are a lots jodha pictures with very bad bruised on her face, on her hands, her stomache even on her back, its like she is being brutally beaten couple of times, and jalal read the police report that her husband beaten her bad very often and jodha report him but withdraw it suddenly each time, but the last time she reported it she didn’t withdraw it and sued her husband for assault and apply for divorced, he look at her document when finally she sued her husband and read the police report and doctor examination,dear God how can her own husband doing this, there are pics of her with ripped lips, her eyes swollen due the injury and what shock him the most her back full of scars its like someone whimped her even some scars still have fresh blood on it, jalal feel really sick looking those pictures, my God not in his life time he will see these kind torture and assault, and this happen to jodha, his jodha the woman he loved must goin through these kind of assault, tears falls down on jalal cheeks, my God for almost 4 years he hate her, curse her and wish her suffer but he never though that jodha suffer more than him, oh my God what had he done.

Adgah cant do anything lookin jalal break like that, and there is the last reality of jodha life that jalal must to face “ jalal “ call adgah.

Jalal look at adgah with tears and adgah can see all this reality killing him inside “ jalal there is second map, read it “ tell adgah, jalal look at the red map and he really don’t want to open it but he has to, he has to know everything bout jodha, with shaking hands jalal open the map and read it, there some pictures too there but it’s a picture jodha when she was a kid then something strike him.

“ ya Allah . . . . “ jalal say in whispers, he is totally numb when he see pictures of little jodha with some bruised, he read doctor examination, broken arms, broken ribs , jalal couldn’t finish read the report, he close the map.

Jalal feel very suffocating .. he cant breath . . then he stand up and walking towards the window, adgah rech the reports and put it back into envelope, he even not dare to look at it, enough for him to read it once.

“ I didn’t know bout her childhood . . she always looked happy, never give me a hint she had very dark childhood . . . “ jalal hold his hands into fist and wish to kill her father but too bad he already died in hit and run, and her ex husband ooh he wish her ex in front of him now, how can they did this ?, he cant even imagine what is jodha been goin through, and how the way he bevahed to her in their last met, how he forced to kiss even pushed her so hard that she fell on the ground . . oh God .. he is feels very sick and angry, he want to hit something or someone.

Adgah watch jalal “ so what are you going to do ? the reason she married ex husband were not in this file, you must to ask her personally, even the caused of her mother in coma before she died was little bit suspicious too “

Jalal nod “ of course adgah . . i will ask her and this time i wont go before got the answer “ there are soo many things in his mind, these painful reality hit him really hard from all corner and he cant think straight right now “ adgah can you leave alone for sometime “

“ Sure jalal . . do you want me to leave these reports or . . . ‘

“ Destroy it adgah . . make sure nobody else see that reports “ he cut him.

“ Considered done jalal . . “ said adgah, he wish jalal would destroy the reports after he read it if not he will destroy it by himself “ i will leave now “ said adgah.

“ ok . .  and thank you adgah, how i wish i told you bout her to you earlier so i don’t have to wait 4 damn years just know bout her painful life, i wish i could help her so she didn’t have to suffer for soo long “ said jalal with deeply regret.

“ I know jalal . . but we cant changed what happened in the past, the question now is what will you do ? “

There is one thing he will do obviously but he wont blurt out to adgah, not before he put everything back to it place “ let me think what i must do adgah “

“ ok . . i will leave now “ then adgah leave jalal office, and he tell rani very stricty that no one can come into jalal office no matter what, not until the big man himself come out or phone her when he need anything but before that don’t disturb him, rani nod and when adgah leave she quickly guess something happening with her bos and she just hope his arrogant fiancée wont come here today, she is realy starts to irritates her, ruqaiya sultan may be one of the most woman and rich too but she is really very arrogant, she can’t take no from other people, couple times she came to met her bos abut the big man himself give order no one cant come into office and ruqaiya feel she had the priviliged since now she is his fiancée but surpised to her there’s no such thing privilege in jalal book so she must go back and with deadly glared to her.

Jalal still standing in front of window, there’s lot expression written all over his face, anger, sad, regret and unbelievable, he bump his forehead slowly to the glasess couple time to express his frutation “ damn damn . . you are such a very dumb jalal, you wasting your time in those 4 damn years to hate and cursing jodha while she is suffering alone . . . “ he said angrily to him self, then he look around his office desperate want to hit something to express his anger when he hear his inner heart sayin something “ this is what you’ve always denied .. you believe the worst from her and you didn’t have the gut to ask your heart was she capable of doin something like that “ jalal feel more frustration, he is walking around in anger, he never feel soo helpless like this and suddenly he hit the wall with his right fist, he keep hitting is until blood come out from his hands, his wounded hand would feel very hurt in normal situation but he don’t feel it, after satiesfield express his anger and frustration he is just standing there look up to the ceiling, his hands are beside his body and the wounded one start to drop blood on the floor “ im sorry jodha . . im soo sorry “ he said in very regretly voice, he close his eyes then the picture of her with badly bruised comes into eyes like a bad reminders and he try all he can do to cast away the image, he don’t know how long he pose like that it doesn’t matter to him.

Rani is just bout to make a phone call when the elevator door open and come out the last person she wish to meet today, with heavy sigh she put back the phone and stand up to greeting ruqaiya sultan.

“ good afternoon mam “ she greet her with fake smile but ruqaiya not bother to stop she keep walking toward jalal office, rani prevent her when she is bout to reach the door knob, ruqaiya looking at rani with angry “ im sorry mam, i’ve got very strict order from Mr. Jalal and adgah not to let anyone come in“

“ I’ve enough to hear that order but today no one can stop me from meeting my fiancée not even God “ said ruqaiya with anger then she push rani aside and open the door, rani run after ruqaiya to stop her but both stop when they see jalal standing near his desk with his face look up and close eyes, rani immedietly sense something very wrong and she just bout to warn ruqaiya when she notice blood drop from his hand, her eyes wide open in shock and before she can say anything ruqaiya already speaks “ jalal “

Hearing someone calling him draw jalal back to his sense, he turn around and see ruqaiya and rani both stand not soo far from him, with anger he looking at shocking rani, he already give her an order not to let anyone come in, shocking rani see anger in jalal eyes “ im sorry sir . . I try to stop her but she push me and force to enter “ rani rush to explain the situation before she got blamed.

Jalal looking at ruqaiya with anger “ who the hell do you think you are ? you dare to come into my office with force ? “ he shouting to her , his voice thundering and some employee who work near jalal office can hear his voice loud and clear, they watch with curious what makes the iceman soo angry, mirza and abdul who just come out from elevator looking at the crowd and they wonder what happening, then they hear jalal shouting “ answer me .. who the hell do you think you are ? “.

Mirza and abdul almost run toward jalal office then they stop dead when they see scene inside, mirza look at his brother bleeding hand, he rush to go to jalal side and try to calm him, he touch his shoulder “ bhaijan .. calm bhaijan “

Ruqaiya and rani shaking watching the man infront of them, there is anger yet cold in his eyes and he seem ready to kill anyone who is bothering him, ruqaiya swallow the air and with shaking voice she try to speak “ ja ja ja lal . . don’t be angry . . I just want to see you . . . “

“ just go ruqaiya im not in good mood now . . . “ said jalal

But ruqaiya being stubborn wont give up so easily “ I want to meet my fiancée what’s wrong with that, you are avoiding me since the engagement party . . . “

Feel irritating by her act he intend to walk towards her but mirza hold him back, with anger he look at ruqaiya “ get the hell out from here “ he shouting, abdul with force drag ruqaiya from jalal office follow by rani, then he close the door.

Abdul see some employee still join in the crowd to watch what will happen next and he it piss him off “ if you don’t back to work now i will kick your ass one by one “ threat abdul and like a bunch of kids they all busy to back to their workplace, then abdul face ruqaiya and rani who seems still shock with the previous scene, abdul touch rani shoulder and she start to back to her sense, she look at ruqaia with sympathy and yet anger “ abdul i try to stop her . . . “ she plead

Abdul stop her “ it’s ok rani . . jalal is not angry with you don’t worry ok .. you are his best secretary he won’t fire you, what he can do without you here . . “ abdul try to cheer her up, rani start to loosen up little bit then she give abdul smile and back to her desk, now abdul face jalal fiancee who still pale “ are you ok mam ? “ he ask.

Ruqaiya give tantrum to abdul “ of course im not ok “ she snap “ you think after what he done everything is ok ? are you nuts … “ she add with anger.

“ my mistake mam “ abdul apologise.

Ruqaiya look at behind abdul and curse the man inside “ your bos is not a iceman .. he is monster .. he will hear from my father soon, no one can treat hindal mirza like your bos just did “ with that claim ruqaiya leave.

Abdul feel relieve with her leaving then he back to jalal office but before he knock it first to ask permission and he hear mirza asking him to come, he see jalal sit on couch and mirze kneel infront of jalal, he is bandaging jalal wounded hand, abdul sit on the couch in front of jalal and watch his friends.

“ what the hell is that bout man ? “ ask abdul.

Jalal look up and see curiosity in abdul and mirza face “ im not in the mood today and she just getting in the way “

Mirza done bandaging jalal hand and he sit beside abdul “ come on bhaijan talk to us . . what’s really happen ? i always want to ask you this but haven’t got the chance, what’s wrong with you bhaijan ? “ ask mirza.

Jalal see no way out these two men wont let him go this time “ i guess there is no chance for you two to pretend never saw what happened ? “

“ not a chance “ mirza and abdul answer in the same time, jalal almost laugh seeing them with determination in their eyes.

Jalal give a surrender look because after what they witnessed back then he cant keep this matters anymore beside he trust them just like he trust adgah, so jalal start to narrate everything to them, both mirza and abdul really pay attention they show shocking and horrible expression when they heard bout jodha past, mirza and abdul really feel shock with truth revelation from jalal, they have no idea bout jalal past relationship with jodha.

“ now you both know bout me and jodha and i ask you to keep it , don’t tell anyone bout this “ mirza and abdul nodded but mirza feel his brother sharp eyes looking at him “ not even to ammijaan .. do you hear me mirza “ jalal warn him.

“ I wont tell anybody bhaijan not even ammijaan . . but what are you goin to do bhaijan ? your engagement with ruqaiya already seal “

“ let me worry bout ruqaiya . . the most important thing to do now i must talk to jodha, i’ve act like a jerk the last time i met her . . i will make everything is right “ said jalal.

“ like you always told me jalal you do what your heart told you “ said abdul and jalal give him thank you smile because his friends understand him so well.

“ ok i need to get out from here .. bout the ocean pacific hotel bail out just do it abdul, i want that hotel .. take mirza to help you out, i want ocean pacific hotel belong to mughals corporation by the end of this month abdul and if they still stubborn give them hell “ abdul smile listening to his confident but that’s what make him a very succesfull bussineeman, jalal stand up and reach his coat and ready to leave when he remember one thing “ mirza please tell badi ammi i cant meet her this afternoon, tell her tomorrow after finish all my pending appointenment i will spend time to listen what she is gonna say “ said akbar

“ ok bhaijan . . “ said mirza then jalal leave but when he pass rani desk he stop by, rani look up to her bos who seem ready to leave office.

“ im sorry rani you must witness what happened earlier .. and im not mad of you “

Rani smile giving him insurance that she is ok “ im ok sir don’t worry “

“ ok .. so we are cool ? “

“ we are cool “

Jalal then leave the building but no one dare to look up to the employer when he passed their desk, they still cant shaken up the image of iceman finally show emotion, and they never see jalal soo angry before, they feel very bad to his fiancée who is in her worst day must receive that kind anger.